Today’s Gratitudes

I am grateful that:

  1. I no longer want to “wish away” the time. Like, “Just this day is hard but soon I’ll be home and I can rest.” MAKE the day good/great!
  1. Hot coffee in the morning. Really. It is a luxury.
  1. This time around in OA. Cause I’m seeing/ feeling real changes.
  1. FINALLY I am virtually totally at peace regarding J. It can still hurt and will again I know for sure as we are in change, but I am at peace thinking and feeling: I DESERVE to be LOVED not tolerated. AND I do NOT need to put myself down and hate myself for my flaws and mistakes of the past. I cannot change them. I am here now. USE now. Help others now. ENJOY now! : )

Gratitudes March 1

My Gratitudes

 

HUGE. ESPECIALLY NUMBERS 4 AND 5

 

I am grateful that:

 

  1. I do sleep at night. I remember when I didn’t, and am so grateful that I do now!

 

  1. I have a blog. Although I must figure out how to categorize things (like: Journal, Grats, etc), at least I HAVE it.

 

  1. That my new bird comes onto my hand readily. Yay.

 

  1. I am grateful for my program work. I am going to OA now and working the steps and it is totally different than when I tried it years ago. *I * am different, and therefore have found POSITIVE sponsor who really touches me and that makes a huge difference for me. Huge. Of course I am different in other ways too. I have been through more, very painful – very – and good too…

 

  1. I am so grateful to be where I am today. Last April, I was standing in a store, and suddenly everything looked different. Literally. Physically. And it was then that I realized I had been seeing life – physically and emotionally – through a fog, a grey film. I will write about it in a Journal entry soon. I have never had to see things through that again! Thankful thankful thankful!