Affirmations Feb 27

I’m remarkable and cherished.
I’m smart and capable.
I’m brave and positive.
I’m beautiful and sexy.
I’m fun and lovable and loved.
I’m loyal and others are loyal to me.

I am fulfilled.
I know I am priceless.
I have everything I need and want.
I love my life.

My life is perfect!
My marriage is happy!
I am totally fulfilled!
I enjoy perfect health!
The Universe takes perfect care of me!
I enjoy my life!
I am a miracle!

Life is eternal and filled with joy.
I look forward to every moment.

Life is eternal and filled with joy.
I look forward to every moment.

Life is eternal and filled with joy.
I look forward to every moment.

Life is eternal and filled with joy.
I look forward to every moment.

Life is eternal and filled with joy.
I look forward to every moment.

Gratitudes Feb 26

  1. I did meditate yesterday. Sat in car before went in and did it! Grateful for that
  2. Great WW meeting!
  3. Did my morning work first. Good!
  4. Good afternoon special OA thing
  5. Was able to talk with people there. Didn’t used to be able to. – But I think shouldn’t be so down on myself about it – I think it was too artificial and I needed to *get to know* people first. Now it is more real and natural. Yay!
  6. Visited mother.
  7. Was good with her and with M (except for M’s negativity but I got over it)
  8. Went to regular OA meeting then
  9. Did. Not. Overeat. Thank God!
  10. Jo brought me coffee in the morning!
  11. When I got home later, in evening, I was in kitchen and saw a truck outside on the driveway – it was Jo! He came out in the pouring rain to get the garbage for me! So nice!
  12. That I even USE the kitchen now!
  13. I use every room as I meant them to be. Am so glad for that
  14. I love sitting at the table doing this morning work!
  15. I always wanted to feel safe in my own house. I do now
  16. I always wanted to feel good in my own bed. I do now. Even though it’s broken, I do!
  17. I always wanted each room in order as “meant” to be. Bathroom for bathroom, bedroom for bedroom, etc. Sit at table etc
  18. I love my two tvs, the regular one in the den and the little on in the d.r.
  19. My favorite two days – one was at the appliance store to buy those, and the veil was lifted. After all my work for years, that day, the veil was lifted. So grateful!
  20. And the other, maybe a year ago tomorrow (I’ll check my notes) – I found my Higher Power. So lucky.
  21. I have fruit
  22. I have veggies
  23. I have water
  24. I have lentils
  25. I have beans
  26. I have “fake meat” proteins
  27. I have grains
  28. I have breads
  29. I have pots
  30. I have pans
  31. I have stove
  32. I have microwave
  33. I have fridge
  34. I have freezer
  35. I have supermarket
  36. I have health food store
  37. I have supplements even
  38. I have sea shells
  39. I have the pretty vase I painted myself
  40. I slept last night
  41. And had interesting dreams, not nightmares.
  42. Liking my book
  43. Not reading – watching – putting things into my head that I don’t want there
  44. Woke up on time this morning. Set alarm but didn’t stay:)
  45. The temporary tattoo I’m wearing. “Conscious ink.”  Fun. And inspirational
  46. And got compliments on it
  47. I am smart. Came up with good things at WW yesterday again
  48. Saw two people there that I know also.
  49. And was able to talk to them too.
  50. Not so deathly shy like used to be.
  51. I worked through it all
  52. I am going to stop saying, “I’m __ and I’m a compulsive overeater.” Law of Attraction: I’m going to say, “I’m ___ and I’m grateful to be in recovery!” Or something like that.
  53. Shoes
  54. Socks. Including new pairs
  55. Laundry detergetnt
  56. Books
  57. I have so much. I am looking around me right now at pretty things in a clean home That I didn’t have to clean, myself. I always wanted this.
  58. I am not alone.
  59. I will not live alone for the rest of my life
  60. Affirmations
  61. Readings
  62. Gratitudes
  63. Prayer
  64. Meditation
  65. The happy times with my mother
  66. My loving father.
  67. Living with my sister when I was little. Yes really.
  68. That I appreciate work now.
  69. That i don’t resent now.
  70. My uncle’s last words to me about secret to life: “Just keep going. Don’t look back. Don’t have regrets”
  71. All good advice I’ve ever been given.
  72. All honesty.
  73. MA having said to me that when I pedestalize others, it’s as unfair to them as it is to me.
  74. Her sharing those private life things with me the last time we spoke before she died.
  75. And wanting to come back and go to lawyer to leave me something. (She couldn’t – she died while away – but what a loving thought/decision).
  76. Her great advice from her mother. That you look at the situation you’re in, and you take your best shot from there for happiness.
  77. I’m grateful for typing. I love what it does for me.
  78. Got the tickets for O’s two concerts. I’m glad I’ll be going.
  79. Those choose your favorite room posts by the realtor. I enjoy them.
  80. The trees blowing outside my window right now. I love that. I love them.
  81. My birds’ health!
  82. That they get along now! Are besties:)
  83. Just came from health food store. Loved that trip
  84. And nice talk with L in car on phone too
  85. And now I have, all organic: spinach
  86. power greens
  87. bananas
  88. apples
  89. tomatoes
  90. strawberries
  91. Parsley
  92. lentils
  93. green beans, canned, which I love
  94. And I have Bombay Spice Chickpeas (Company is Saffron Road)
  95. Some “fake” protein foods, yes
  96. Whole wheat English muffins
  97. Daiya “cheese”
  98. Today I will make one or two of these: lentil loaf/ pasta bake/ soup (can add the zero pasta and some sauce in there lol).
  99. Just talked with M. Nice talk yay.
  100. Will leave for WW in little while ahhhh.
  101. Tonight will watch red carpet.
  102. I love my rings that I’m wearing
  103. And my earrings that I’m wearing ❤
  104. And am very comfy in sweat pants and a cute top.

 

Affirmations Feb 26

I am so happy!
It really works!
My life is wonderful!
I have 100% everything I could ever want!

I love my life!
I love my home!
I love people!
I love my job!
I have tons of money!
My health is perfect!

I am lovable!
I am loved!
I give love!
All is perfect!
All is right in my world!
The Universe is taking perfect care of me!

Life is eternal and filled with joy.
I look forward to every moment.

Life is eternal and filled with joy.
I look forward to every moment.

Life is eternal and filled with joy.
I look forward to every moment.

Life is eternal and filled with joy.
I look forward to every moment.

Journal Feb 26

I’m happy for what I accomplished this week. I faced things I’ve been putting off for years. I didn’t do the other closet (yet) because i devoted yesterday all to me. Morning work then WW then 2 hours OA special thing, then 1 hour OA meeting. And it was all good for me! I can do the closet next Saturday morning.

Today I shop for my groceries and my mother’s groceries, and take JL for hers while I do my mother’s. I cook and do laundry. I think I’ll cook my pasta bake and either soup or lentil loaf (which sounds horrible but is really good. I’ll have to start a Recipes category).

I am deciding now (have been since I woke up): I am happy.
It works.
I smile so much every day now!

Will try to come back later.

Prayers:
God, I offer myself to Thee. To build with me and to do with me as Thou wilt. Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Thy will. Take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help, of Thy Power, Thy Love, And Thy Way of Life. May i do Thy will always. Amen.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference. Amen.
And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing, or situation – some fact of my life – unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Nothing, absolutely nothing, happens in God’s world by mistake. Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober unless I accept life completely on life’s terms. I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes.
Amen.

Readings Feb 26

How to Sit:

RECOGNIZING THE BODY

When our in-breath and out-breath become peaceful and pleasant, our bodies begin to benefit. In our daily lives, many of us forget that we have a body. Our bodies often contain stress, pain, and suffering. Often we ignore the body until the pain gets too great. If we breathe peacefully, this peace will be transmitted to the body. Sitting and breathing mindfully, we bring the mind back to the body and begin to recognize its presence and release the tension held there.

My takeaway: Yes!

How to Eat:

ATTENTION TO WHAT WE EAT

Before eating, you may see a condiment dish with red chili peppers. It looks very appealing. But when you look deeper, you know you are sensitive to them, and if you eat them they may affect your digestion.  So although they’re delicious, they may not be healthy for you. Something can e delicious and not healthy., so we have to be very careful about what we prepare and what we eat. Healthy is good, but healthy and not delicious isn’t good either. you have to have both.

My takeaway: Great thought, yes.

How to Walk:

TAKING CARE OF THE FUTURE

There are those of us who are prisoners of the future. We don’t now what will happen but we worry so much that the future becomes a kind of prison. The real future is made only of one substance, and that is the present. What else can the future be made of? If we know how to take care of the presnt moment the best we can, that’s all we can do to assure ourselves of a good future. We build the future by taking care of the present moment. Taking care of the present moment includes mindful breathing, enjoying your in-breath and out-breath. With each step, you arrive in the future you are making. Make it a future of peace and compassion.

My takeaway: Don’t worry about the future. Live the present! ❤

How to Relax:

DON’T WASTE YOUR LIFE

On the wooden board outside of the meditation hall in many Zen monasteries, there is a four-line inscription. The last line is, “Do not squander your life.” Our lives are made of days and hours, and each hour is precious. Have we wasted our hours and our days? Are we wasting our lives? When we practice sitting or walking meditation, it’s easier to be mindful and concentrated. During the rest of the day, we also practice. It’s more difficult, but it’s possible. The sitting and the walking can be extended to the non-walking, non-sitting moments of our day. That is the basic principle of meditation.

My takeaway: Each hour is precious. Each moment is precious. I’m So glad I’m enjoying them now! God, thank You!!

For Today:

Most people ask for happiness on condition. Happiness can only be felt if you don’t set any condition. Artur Rubinstein

As a compulsive overeater, I know that making conditions for happiness doesn’t work. I thought I could only be happy if I was thin. So I dieted and lost weight. I went out and had a lot of fun and excitement. That was happiness, wasn’t it? It wasn’t.
Happiness is freedom from compulsive overeating – and that freedom does not come until I give up the conditions, the “Yes, buts” and the “If onlys.” How enslaving conditions are, and how fearful it is to let them go, to lose control. Life doesn’t come made to order. It comes as it comes, on its own terms, whether or not I accept it.

For today: Setting conditions is putting myself back in the driver’s seat. I can have the courage to trust, to let go and know that the ability to do this is a great blessing.

My takeaway: Oops – I like the TNH ones better. Is ok…

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Voices of Recovery:

“Ours is a spiritual program, not a religious one. We have no creeds or doctrines, only our own experiences of recovery.” – The Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions of Overeaters Anonymous, p. 13

I was never a religious person, or even a spiritual one for that matter. When I first came to OA, I had difficulty with the idea of a Higher Power. Honestly, it scared me. I wanted to believe, but I just didn’t know how. It was only by talking with several members who openly shared their ideas of a Higher Power that I was able to open my own mind. I did something I couldn’t do for thirty years: I came to believe in a power greater than myself. The fact that OA is a spiritual program, and not a religious one, is why I am still here. Today I believe in a power greater than myself, a loving, caring Higher Power that I define in my own words.

My takeaway: I think *tomorrow* is my one-year anniversary of finding my Higher Power! SO grateful!

DAILY REFLECTIONS:

Understanding is the key to right principles and attitudes, and right action is the key to good living. Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, p. 125

There came a time in  my program of recovery when the third stanza of the Serenity Prayer  – “The wisdom to know the difference” – became indelibly imprinted in my mind. From that time on, I had to face the ever-present knowledge that my every action, word and thought was within, or outside, the principles of the program. I could no longer hide behind self-rationalization, nor behind the insanity of my disease. The only course open to me, if I was to attain a joyous life for myself (and subsequently for those I love), was one in which I imposed on myself an effort of commitment, discipline, and responsibility.

My takeaway: Yes, Buddhism too. Of course I want to live within…

As Bill Sees It:

Live Serenely

When a drunk has a terrific hangover because he drank  heavily yesterday, he cannot live well today. But there is another kind of hangover which we all experience whether we are drinking or not. That is the emotional hangover, the direct result of yesterday’s and sometimes today’s excesses of negative emotion – anger, fear, jealousy, and the like.

If we would live serenely today and tomorrow, we certainly need to eliminate these hangovers. This doesn’t mean we need to wander morbidly around in the past. It requires an admission and correction of errors – now.

My takeaway: It ISN’T just me who suffers with these things like negative emotion. And I usually don’t have! Yay!
VERY thankful to have just read this!

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Journal Feb 25

I am so grateful:

I awakened from those nightmares
M called and I don’t have to go to my mother’s ’til much later today. Whew relief
Je asked me about the OA thing and I wasn’t going to go, but now I am. That’s good for me as well as service!

So I have today and tomorrow planned. And they are not crazed, but not lonely and bored either. Enough.

I’m lucky and I’m grateful.

Amen.

Now prayers:
God, I offer myself to you. To build with me and to do with me as Thou wilt. Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Thy will. Take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help, of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of Life. May I do Thy will always, amen.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference. Amen.
And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing, or situation – some fact of my life -unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Nothing, absolutely nothing, happens in God’s world by mistake. Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober; unless I accept life completely on life’s terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes.
Amen.

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Gratitudes Feb 25

  1. That I had to pick only a second reading, ’cause of time constraints. And it was like, inspired, that pick. Letting go of the past. Oh thank you.
  2. That I woke up from those nightmares
  3. And that they WERE just dreams. Wow.
  4. Mother’s aide M just called and I don’t have to visit til after the other stuff of the day
  5. The temporary inspirational tattoos I got 🙂
  6. And the just cute ones too
  7. My breath
  8. Jo is here with another guy, working
  9. and brought me coffee!
  10. Small, black, DD just as I like the coffee!
  11. And we hugged. Nice.
  12. That it is able to be a nice friendship now.
  13. Other people are posting in “my” pages now yay!
  14. That M had to cancel last night. I wasn’t really up to going.
  15. That I did NOT go to the store for crap and binge!
  16. WW today
  17. And tomorrow. I need.
  18. OA today. I need.
  19. Hope again!
  20. New starts (I am the queen of new starts)
  21. That I am healthy
  22. That I am safe
  23. That I am nice
  24. That I do not live in a constant state of fear like I used to
  25. That my house is in order. Ahhh. ~*Ahhhhhhh!*~
  26. That I am in a good mood now.
  27. That I get along with Mexicans
  28. and black and white and aAsian from different countries and South American and all nationalities of people.
  29. My deep breath I just took
  30. That I am so much nicer than I used to be
  31. That I have taken the initiation into TNH’s Order of Interbeing
  32. And they gave me the name they gave me
  33. The book, “Be Free Where You Are”
  34. Buddha
  35. TNH
  36. Martin Luther King
  37. Elie Weiesal
  38. Mother Teresa
  39. That I have led children in singing
  40. That I can carry a tune
  41. That I never have mutilational thoughts anymore
  42. Or those other bad thoughts
  43. My healthy little routines
  44. Access to so much good healthy food
  45. Water. ACcess to water
  46. Baths
  47. Showers
  48. Drinking water
  49. Lemon lime seltzer. I love it. And I love it in with my Shakeo too
  50. Good bras
  51. Workout dvd’s
  52. Beachbody
  53. Ju
  54. TA
  55. That I don’t do it for work anymore, just discount coach. I HAVE a job; don’t need that one too.
  56. Honest politicians (if there are any)
  57. The right to vote
  58. My parents. For all of it the easy and the hard, yes
  59. Growing up with much great cousin time
  60. Still being in touch with 4 of them
  61. My uncle Ch’s last words to me (us): Do you want to know my best advice for living? Just keep going. Don’t look back. Don’t have regrets.” Thank you, Uncle Ch.
  62. Peaceful people
  63. People who care for animals
  64. That I did the dresser yesterday! I did it! The other dresser!
  65. And I will do the other closet tomorrow!
  66. That I accomplished so much this vaca!
  67. Things I’ve been putting off for YEARS. Are now DONE!
  68. The beautiful pedi I got yesterday. Color: Ole caliente 🙂
  69. First color I’ve had since before Thanksgiving. And I love it!
  70. Tomorrow will do WW and shop for other and take Je for her shopping too, and do my shopping, and cook and do laundry. MAY get massage later at nail place for reward. May not need to.
  71. The book I’m mainly reading now, “The Accidental Empress.” I like it.
  72. Goslings
  73. Cyngets. I shall be seeing both soon
  74. And ducklings
  75. Flowers.
  76. Soon I will have them at my little house again
  77. Dishwasher!
  78. Washer! So grateful!
  79. Dryer!
  80. I have a way to go but I look so much better than I did for a time.
  81. I have made it through the hell and back!!!!!! Well not back, but forward!
  82. This morning work ❤
  83. Inspirational memes
  84. Artsy memes
  85. Nature memes
  86. Buddhist memes
  87. People who share their truth
  88. The new Thursday meeting.
  89. The Law of Attraction
  90. I think I won’t say, “I’m __ I’m a compulsive overeater” anymore. Something more positive with the Law of Attraction.
  91. That I so enjoyed reading from The Secret in the pedi chair yesterday
  92. Italian food
  93. Sauce
  94. Fruit
  95. Oranges
  96. Honey crisp apples
  97. Bananas
  98. Cherries in the summer! My favorites!
  99. Artichokes! My favorite food!
  100. This day