Voices of Recovery:
“I cannot expect the difficulties in my life to be erased because I wish it.” – For Today, p. 278
We compulsive overeaters are dreamers, wishers, fantasizers. Just as I always wanted to wake up thin, get a rare wasting disease or be a success story for a new diet drug, so did I want to wish my life problems away. Because I was heavily into food, I did not have the clarity of thought or the connection to my Higher Power or Overeaters Anonymous to help me solve problems in a reasonable way. My life was one crisis after another, one continuing drama that fueled my need for more food to reach oblivion.
How different life is since I became abstinent. Because my mind is clear and my body is strong and healthy, I can face the difficulties of life with a calmness and serenity that were totally foreign to me. I know my God walks with me, helping me over the rough spots and guiding my steps through a problem.
Today, I no longer just wish for relief from life’s problems. Thanks to my Higher Power and my program, I face life’s difficulties secure in the knowledge that I am carrying out God’s plan for my life.
My takeaway: “My life was one crisis after another, one continuing drama that fueled my need for more food to reach oblivion.” Yes. That was me. And can be me in a day, as it was yesterday, building from Fri and then Sat. So I now DO my daily spiritual joywork every day. Phew.
For today: I stay away from simple carbs. Eat veggies, protein, fruit, and complex carbs. Real food. Meals. And do some yoga.
Takeaway #2: “I face life’s difficulties secure in the knowledge that I am carrying out God’s plan for my life.” Wow. ❤
How nature loves the incomplete.
If she drew a conclusion it would finish her. Christopher Fry
There is never an end to change, to growth. I have seen selfish desires vanish, self-pity disappear; I have attained qualities that at one time seemed entirely out of reach. All are the products of growth, the ongoing rewards of struggle. I often think, in the midst of pain, “If I can just get through this, I will be fine.” But no sooner do I get through it than another problem shows up, and the process begins again.
How far can I go? Beyond my wildest imagination. The quality of my life has no limit.
For today: Do I draw conclusions such as, “I am always like that” and “I can never learn that”? Now that I am living one day at a time, I can take always and never out of my vocabulary.
My takeaway: The quality of my life has no limit.
So much here.
I am glad that I was brought to my knees. It has opened me up. This person having seen selfish desires vanish and self-pity disappear, gives great hope to me. The reminder that it is a struggle to get there is helpful also. I too have had the, “If I can just get through this” stuff. But then it begins again. Because the change muist be in ME.