Gratitudes 3/23/18

I Am Grateful!

  1. Yesterday went well. To, at, and from conference day.
  2. I can see
  3. Piano already this morning.
  4. Concert tomorrow (listening not playing lol)
  5. Possibly with D
  6. My friendship with A. ❤
  7. J’s nice message I saw this morning
  8. It is Friday
  9. Spring will come. Maybe soon… 🙂
  10. My beautiful, strong, loving mother passed before the torture that was coming for her ❤
  11. I don’t have pain. Wow!
  12. my piano
  13. China coming omg
  14. my cell phone
  15. tv show “Mom”
  16. fresh flowers
  17. my family. Omg I have family. Oh Thank You.
  18. my job
  19. my house
  20. my car
  21. my passport
  22. and that I found it
  23. Royal Doulton from honeymoom
  24. and all of them
  25. That i can actually enjoy things when not with J. I thought that would never happen. Like real time with family, not need guy attached to hip during, not on way “home” to guy… Wow. Miracle
  26. That I am there for my nephew
  27. and he knows it
  28. and has nice memories with me from when he was younger
  29. my adorable – omg they are the most darling children in the world – great-nieces!
  30. this day of life
  31. breath
  32. i am out of time but dcouldn’t stop writing grats. that’s a nice “problem” to have!
  33. weekend coming ahhh
  34. bank open later – must go for nephew

 

 

Readings 3/23/18

DAILY REFLECTIONS

. . . AND NO MORE RESERVATIONS

We have seen the truth again and again: “Once an alcoholic, always an alcoholic.” .  . . If we are planning to stop drinking, there must be no reservation of any kind, nor any lurking notion that someday we will be immune to alcohol . . . To be gravely affected, one does not necessarily have to drink a long time nor or take the quantities some of us have. This is particularly true of women. Potential female alcoholics often turn into the real thing and are gone beyond recall in a few years.
Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 33

These words are underlined in my book. They are true for men and women alcoholics. On many occasions I’ve turned to this page and reflected on this passage. I need never fool myself by recalling my sometimes differing drinking patterns, or by believing I am “cured.” I like to think that, if sobriety is God’s gift to me, then my sober life is my gift to God. I hope God is as happy with His gift as I am with mine.

My takeaway: I have a disease: compulsive eating and overeating. I can live outside of this disease with the practices. ❤

 

I flow easily with new experiences, new challenges, and new people who enter my life.

I forgive myself and set myself free.

I am an open channel for creative ideas.

I rejoice in the love I encounter every day.
I rejoice in the love I encounter every day.
I rejoice in the love I encounter every day.
I rejoice in the love I encounter every day.
I rejoice in the love I encounter every day.

Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.

Gratitudes 3/22/18

I am grateful:

  1. Yesterday my sister said she felt like she finally found her best friend – me. ❤
  2. And is happy about the money. Not questioning or accusing. Thank You, God.
  3. Comedies like Ellen show in the morning
  4. That I woke up today.
  5. Fb friends
  6. My hands
  7. My breath
  8. My eyesight
  9. This day
  10. The changes due to the snow. Including day off yesterday
  11. and today will have some time to just do own work, since speaker was cancelled.
  12. Calmer than I used to be
  13. Piano. Already played a little this morning
  14. Am getting better at it.
  15. My hair
  16. This haircut. Better than the last three
  17. AND I’m getting compliments on it too
  18. Will dress comfortably today
  19. I am so lucky to have a car
  20. with gas in it
  21. and a home
  22. with heat
  23. and the new sewer pipe installed yesterday
  24. Pretty things around me
  25. J in my life right now
  26. The Law of Attraction
  27. word games
  28. my brain
  29. reading
  30. my books
  31. Jo working around here and I can trust him in the big ways
  32. my cleaning lady and i can trust her
  33. my toaster oven
  34. eating better
  35. yesterday’s lentil soup
  36. veggies. Thank You, God.
  37. Dr. Phil – soemtimes
  38. show My 600 lb Life
  39. Not lying around all day today
  40. that I can walk
  41. mindfulness workshop this morning
  42. my owl mug (gift)
  43. my retaining walls done
  44. my new bathroom
  45. my lungs
  46. my heart
  47. good people
  48. honest people
  49. peope who keep confidences
  50. all the safety
  51. my robe that I’m wearing righ tnow – gift
  52. all gifts
  53. my new pocket book
  54. my Royal Doultons
  55. so many nice memories
  56. family for Easter
  57. my birds
  58. humor
  59. My pretty chair in the d.r.
  60. fresh flowers in the house right now
  61. coffee
  62. tea
  63. water
  64. magazines
  65. my Nook
  66. my wood floors
  67. MA all those years
  68. Tr
  69. MT
  70. N
  71. Me
  72. M for my mother those years
  73. My aunts
  74. My uncles
  75. My cousins
  76. 6 days off soon
  77. and 9 out of 10 total
  78. China coming. Nervous but excited.
  79. mindfulness
  80. meditation
  81. D
  82. A
  83. Da
  84. H ❤
  85. K ❤
  86. Da
  87. P
  88. KC
  89. ES calling e on my way home from hospice that night. What a love
  90. A
  91. L
  92. People in my life. I do have people in my life
  93. Showers
  94. Baths
  95. Sleep
  96. Dreams
  97. God
  98. Thich Nhat Hanh
  99. Music
  100. sunglasses

I have so much. Thank You.

Reading 3/22/18

DAILY REFLECTIONS

NO MORE STRUGGLE…

And we have ceased fighting anything or anyone – even alcohol.
Alcoholics Anonymous

When A.A. found me, I thought I was in for a struggle, and that A.A. might provide the strength I needed to beat alcohol. Victorious in that fight, who knows what other battles I could win. I would need to be strong, though. All my previous experience with life proved that. Today I do not have to struggle or exert my will. If I take those Twelve Steps and let my Higher Power do the real work, my alcohol problem disappears all by itself. My living problems also cease to be struggles. I just have to ask whether acceptance – or change – is required. It is not my will, but his, that needs doing.

My takeaway. Okay. I try every day to remember Higher Power’s will be done…

Affirmations 3/22/18

My body takes me everywhere easily and effortlessly.

My heart is open. I speak with loving words.

Nourishing myself is a joyful experience, and I am worth the time spent on my healing.

I am pain-free and totally in sync with life.

Wellness is the natural state of my body.

All is well in my world.
All is well in my world.
All is well in my world.
All is well in my world.
All is well in my world.

Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal adn filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.

Gratitudes 3/21/18

I am grateful.

  1. This snow day off.
  2. The snow is beautiful on the trees outside my window right now.
  3. I am in robe, comfy, safe, and coy.
  4. I told my sister about the money – and she was nt upset – she was grateful that our mom eft her and her kids some. Oh, thank God. I had been so afraid she’d thought there was more. SUCH a relief!
  5. China, trip, instead of costing me 1700, is costing 600! omg! (plus spending, food I’ll bring, visa application, and insurance)
  6. My life is filled with abundance right now. In these ways  (and more): breath
  7. eyesight
  8. family Omg thank You.. sister
  9. niece
  10. nephew
  11. great niece
  12. 2nd great-niece
  13. Tr
  14. MT
  15. N
  16. cousins K
  17. and J
  18. and Li
  19. and Lo
  20. the sort of halo of sparkly white cottony that surrounds my mother as I picture her now after passing. I am so grateful to feel her presence with me in this way.
  21. Jo and the older man plumber here now. Waste pipe being replaced.
  22. Lentil soup in crock pot right now.
  23. my cell phone
  24. power is on
  25. my little generator just in case (for birds and fridge) (hope never need though)
  26. enough.
  27. I will lose weight
  28. Easter with my family!
  29. The day after, off from work
  30. Will watch My 600 Pound Life and crochet this afternoon for a while
  31. Enjoy Jewelry tv since found out. Do NOT buy, just have it on for very-tired-down-time.
  32. My mommy escaped the big bad suffering that was coming for her hard.
  33. I. Have. My. Family. Oh, thank You, God!
  34. Some people think my (passed) mother and father had something to do with it. I don’t know if I believe that. But either way.
  35. My mom was old, and had a lot of conditions, including: Parkinson’s, kidney failure, a blood clot in her head, virtually closed carotid arteries, heart disease. She stopped eating and started refusing all meds she could refuse. She spent 5 days in hospice, surrounded with love, and died peacefully holding J’s hand. Thank You, God.
  36. A
  37. L
  38. My principal
  39. My district
  40. My students
  41. Their parents
  42. Conferences have been going well so far.
  43. Thich Nhat Hanh
  44. My clean, cozy, sweet house. It is a home.
  45. Fb
  46. Fb friends
  47. Columbo
  48. tv
  49. ovies
  50. books
  51. my Nook
  52. my piano!
  53. Mozart!
  54. Beethoven
  55. Chopin
  56. Villa-Lobos
  57. Bach
  58. Well, all composers
  59. Scarlatti
  60. my piano teachers. First one, Miss U
  61. second, longest-term one: Mrs. B
  62. and now, O
  63. my friendship with her too
  64. healthier now
  65. St
  66. tea dates
  67. MA all those years
  68. the magic circle of MA, ML, and SB we used to have
  69. my brain
  70. the AMAZING top-notch from Ivy League universities teachers we have right now in my 2 courses wow! Lucky me!
  71. my spirituality
  72. my foods. Most organic. All good
  73. ww
  74. oa – maybe – not sure will stay
  75. phone calls
  76. enough I have ENOUGH shoes
  77. ENOUGH money
  78. ENOUGH people
  79. ENOUGH work
  80. ENOUGH time off
  81. ENOUGH of everything
  82. will have some flowers outside this year again:) Yay!
  83. They’ll be watered by the person here while I’m gone!
  84. French. I just love that language.
  85. My hands
  86. my typing
  87. my writing
  88. my piano playing
  89. my hugs
  90. and sweet touches of children
  91. my relaxation day today. Oh so thankful.
  92. Deep breaths. Like the one i just had. Ahhh.
  93. my new pocket book. Vegan.  Large enough but not too large. Easy to organize. Pretty. And cheap. Lovin’ it
  94. That evening I got it, out with D and P
  95. D
  96. P
  97. humor
  98. that people say I am funny and lively and positive and they enjoy me and like me
  99. my hearing
  100. water. plenty of access to good fresh clean water, .Thankful ❤

Readings 3/20/18

DAILY REFLECTIONS

LOVE AND TOLERANCE

Love and tolerance of others is our code.
Alcoholics Anonymous, p 84

I have found that I have to forgive others in all situations to maintain any real spiritual progress. The vital importance of forgiving may not be obvious to me at first sight, but my studies tell me that every great spiritual teacher has insisted strongly upon it.
I must forgive injuries, not just in words, or as a matter of form, but in my heart. I do this not for the other persons’ sake, but for my own sake. Resentment, anger, or a desire to see someone punished, are things that rot my soul. Such things fasten my troubles to me with chains. They tie me to other problems that have nothing to do with my original problem.

My takeaway: I am so very grateful to not be burdened with grudges! Very fortunate in that way indeed.
Now I am working on the judgementalism… Making progress… praying for relief of it totally (like Step 7)

Gratitudes 3/20/18

  1. I am grateful that yesterday went fine. It was to be a MUCH busier day than I like. But it all went fine.
  2. I am grateful that I sleep
  3. I am grateful for my dreams. Not so pleasant this week, but informative.
  4. I am grateful that I am going to China in July! And – will have someone here at the house!
  5. This29386738_10213364031548758_6407402490446217216_n.jpg
  6. Animals yesterday on our field trip.
  7. That kids just naturally love animals.
  8. How cute it is to see a baby seeing another baby. “Baby!” and running over…
  9. This: I made this “sauce” with a little evoo, garlic, onion, hot pep, zucchini, broccoli, artichoke hearts, tomatoes, fresh basil, fresh parsley. And I’m having some of it (it’s very thick with veggies) with brown rice and drained rinsed canned lentils. Surprisingly good!
  10. Fresh coffee this morning
  11. My bills are paid
  12. Jo came yesterday and went over the list with me. All the make-up work should get done phew.
  13. And the toilet fixed. Phew. New pipe needed. Everything always expensive. My mother had warned me, “You want a house?…” lol. She was right ❤ But the gratitude is that I can get it done.
  14. Been up for 1 hour. Second mug coffee. Energy coming. Phew.
  15. Conferences going well.
  16. I DO manage to get it “all” done. I DO manage to get life done.
  17. magazines
  18. my bed
  19. Therapist tomorrow
  20. China course today
  21. hot tea with sourdough whole wheat toast for breakfast this morning
  22. really READY to spend MUCH less!
  23. beautiful visuals
  24. colors
  25. fb memes. i remember first sitting on a train and seeing someone with what I couldn’t tell was an iPhone or an iPod and scrolling and there were all this pics and I SO wanted THAT lol
  26. tv. yes really
  27. “swimming” although you can’t *really* call what I do swimming lol. EVERY time I’ve been in the water. I’m grateful for that
  28. more good things coming in life
  29. this day of life
  30. positivity this day of life
  31. my eyesight
  32. my manifestation board
  33. tv show Mom
  34. my piano
  35. Mozart
  36. already played a little this morning, and it is about 6:30 am
  37. healthy foods in the house
  38. water. plenty of water
  39. my “wish bracelet”
  40. my iPad
  41. my Nook
  42. books
  43. my brin
  44. my mind (2 different things)
  45. that I can read
  46. my spirituatlity
  47. my feminity
  48. our computer teacher at work
  49. my students
  50. their parents. yes, really
  51. my vases
  52. all my pretty things
  53. my breakfront
  54. love. love in my life. all of it
  55. my 3-tiered dish. antique. from my mother. must be over 150 years old now. i wonder who enjoyed it before we did
  56. my hope chest. from my grandmother to my mother to me
  57. enough. i have enough money
  58. i have enough food
  59. i have enough people
  60. i have enough intellect
  61. i have enough house
  62. i have enough talent
  63. i have enough heat
  64. fresh flowers. in my house right now. two vases full
  65. going to CHINA in July! AND someone to stay here at house so all is good! Yay!
  66. my district (ex. China opportunity)
  67. DS
  68. A
  69. L
  70. D
  71. P
  72. Tr!
  73. MT!
  74. Me
  75. nice chat with M yesterday (former mother-aide)
  76. St
  77. O
  78. LH
  79. SB
  80. KB
  81. Jo
  82. J
  83. My mother’s many many great examples to me
  84. My father’s many many beautiful qualities too
  85. BD, growing up.
  86. MG, growing up.
  87. CM, growing up
  88. my former bestie C
  89. *~My Higher Power~*
  90. oa for finding me my Higher Power
  91. ww
  92. that I can write (not like writer author, just write)
  93. all my jewelry
  94. gifts. every gift I’ve received
  95. that I still have my little music box I bought for mySELF at age 17 for Christmas! Paid 5 dollars:) First Christmas present ever bought for self
  96. That I have my mother’s large magnifying glass
  97. my amethyst geode
  98. my rose quartz crystal(s)
  99. my Tibetan singing bowl
  100. Thich Nhat Hanh
  101. the little meditation book my principal gave each of us
  102. that my kiddies love those exercises
  103. my life. Wow. Nice that I’m grateful for my life. ❤