Affirmations April 30, 2018

I rejoice in the love I encounter every day.

My body takes me everywhere easily and effortlessly.

I go beyond barriers to possibilities.

Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.

 

Gratitudes 4/27/18

Not time, but want to do so won’t use many words…

  1. breath
  2. eyesight
  3. tues’s miracles
  4. including the gifts from Am
  5. the beautiful gift bag
  6. the book
  7. the card
  8. the Irish stone
  9. giving my moldavite to Tr for daughter A
  10. and the notes
  11. my walk in the beautiful weather yesterday. A start toward what Dr K and I discussed, about doing love-things for/with self.
  12. PD Wed
  13. getting along fine with L on that day
  14. good sleep last night
  15. and dreams
  16. and waking up well
  17. breakfast just now
  18. shower yesterday evening
  19. phone talk with sis last night
  20. the spring weather
  21. the front is getting done… not too much money but pretty enough…
  22. cleaning lady did good job yesterday
  23. cara cara oranges
  24. my niece H
  25. my niece K
  26. my niece A
  27. my sister!
  28. my nephew
  29. my cousin J
  30. my cousin M
  31. my cousin J
  32. my cousin K
  33. my cousin L
  34. her sister my cousin L
  35. M
  36. Tr
  37. MT
  38. AM
  39. N
  40. my students. at this time of year lol. cause i’ve brought them far AND they’ve grown
  41. i am so grateful for life
  42. and breath
  43. and my house
  44. and this day
  45. and this weather
  46. and water

out of time

Journal/ Changes/ Law of Attraction 4/27/18

I love my life.
I love my life right now.
Omg. Thank You.

On Tuesday, I *decided* in the morning to raise my vibration. I did research on this… I was *determined!*
I focused on that.
And miraculous things happened throughout the day.
The beautiful card from MT came the day before, saying I’d been the one who showed her she could smile again.
We got paraffin wax treat and lunchtime. And the energy in the room was different. Calm. Beautiful.
My new aide did great. (Mon too?) I’d decided to change things Mon.
I got a beautiful present from AM. A lovely card and book (Box of Butterflies)
and found out next day, Wed, at happy PD day, that it also had a “worry stone” from Ireland, made from Connemara marble. xo
then I visited with J and Ph. It was wonderful.

All of that stayed with me.

and Wed I was able to enjoy PD
and be ok at home

and Thurs – yesterday – I was able to fill self
visited with J and Ph after school. Made some mistakes ’cause a little nervous underneath I guess, but more ok than before
lovely visit
and then came here and took walk. Beautiful weather. Filled self

And was able, yesterday, to GIVE my moldvite away. To Tr for daughter A! With notes on its powers.
Feels so good

Did eat too much, and was a little tired when Jo showed up about work and I’d just showered and didn’t want to step outside but he wouldn’t take off shoes…
Is all ok though. Is all good.
Slept well. Interesting dreams. And awoke nicely.

Literally leaned on kitchen counter today loving it (and it is not granite or anything fancy) and thought, “Oh. I love my life now. Just enjoy it.”

Affirmations April 27, ’18

I deserve the best, and I accept it now. All my needs and desires are met before I even ask.

Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.

Affirmations April 26

Every person, place and thing on this planet is interconnected with love. I am at home in the Universe.

Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.

My mind and body are in perfect balance. I am a harmonious being.

Changes April 26, 2018

Food.
Something this week seems to have really changed.
I asked at ww on Sun, how people have leftover (“roll-over”) points, and how they save up weeklies. I can and do EASILY eat my 23 plus 1/7 of my weeklies (which is 5) every single day (and still want to eat more).

A few things happened:
1 was the look on my leader’s face. She looked so surprised at that.
2 was 2 – 3 people offered suggestions and help – from tofu scramble to take care of my egg issue, to ww Canada site for recipes…
*I* FINALLY came to a realization. I CANNOT eat the way I did, or the way I “want,” and lose weight consistently. I guess I knew that intellectually, but now I have registered it.
I started eating more zero-point and low-point but nutrition-filled foods earlier in the day, leaving me more points for evening.
It’s a REALIZATION. Deep. Inside. I have to change this.
And it has started feeling good. Like, the veggies and proteins and more real whole food (ex. Senegalese stew and my lentil soup with greens) leave me feeling good.
I have more energy too. Spring weather may be adding to it – more light almost certainly is – but in any even, I have more energy.

I’m grateful

Gratitudes April 26, 2018

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  2. That they are; they really are.
  3. What I heard Dr Nowzaraden say last night on My 600-Lb-Life show, about how problems are life. And then that therapist, maybe named Rachel, saying that most people are like that more often than not. Helped me in acceptance.
  4. I am so grateful for knowing of the Law of Attraction
  5. and working on raising my vibration the last 2 days
  6. this is day 4 of eating perfectly. and it feels great!
  7. A number of good people love me. Including:
  8. J
  9. A-M
  10. Tr
  11. MT
  12. This “circle” feels a good deal like the MA, ML, S circle from years ago.
  13. Only I’m healthier now.
  14. The veil lifted. Life is different since then. 3 years already
  15. All the years with MA
  16. My appreciation now
  17. That my mother escaped suffering
  18. I can see!
  19. I can walk!
  20. I can drive!
  21. I can work or retire…  (as long as I’m willing to face the financial realities of all)
  22. work at virtually anything I want
  23. I have gotten my students to a nice point.
  24. Time. Every minute of my life.
  25. Honest people
  26. Open people
  27. People who keep confidences.
  28. Including me
  29. MT from fb (different from MT close irl friend)
  30. my nephew D
  31. I did it last night. I didn’t overeat. I wanted to. I found myself falling into the, “Just this once,” and even, “I think I need more protein,” and, “I can get away with it; my weight was a little down,” … But I am officially still in it for this week. Phew! So grateful!
  32. Something is changing. I will write about it in “Changes”

Things to Remember April 25

N.C., now on fb, remembers me from high school. She was impressed with me. I was so good at piano… (and I was pretty, and popular, and smart, and very well-liked by boys)

M, (J’s sister), couldn’t believe her “baby brother” was dating *me*! *I* was special. Enviable. Had so much. Looks, popularity, grades, piano,… She couldn’t believe I would bother with him. –

Remember these things. These characteristics are still in you!

 

Gratitudes April 25, 2018

  1. I have PD today
  2. Yesterday really filled me.
  3. I was open to it
  4. Even focused on it, as much as could, all day from morning
  5. Piano. This morning already.
  6. Mindfulness on now. Listening. Not listening mindfully, as typing here. But listening. (This part I already know. Other parts, listening mindfully).
  7. The card from M, which thanked me for being “the one who taught her to smile again,” after her great loss.
  8. The present from A-M
  9. and her beautiful words in the card
  10. seeing J and Ph
  11. hugging both
  12. Tr texting me last night.
  13. People: J
  14. Tr
  15. M
  16. A-M
  17. sister D
  18. niece A
  19. great-niece H
  20. great-niece K
  21. my principal
  22. that I feel better about work now (cause I kind of NEED 2 more years)
  23. I am losing weight! Soon will have lost the 10 – 11 I’d gained
  24. ww
  25. my mornings. relaxed. time. get the things done. enjoy.
  26. my house in such lovely order now.
  27. that I keep it that way
  28. and pay for someone to clean it
  29. i am so grateful that i breathe. Yes, my very breath. There are people in iron lungs. There are people on oxygen. There are people who this day are taking their last breaths. I am probably not.
  30. birds outside my window right now
  31. buds on the tree out front! ❤
  32. spring. it is here. finally! spring!
  33. my new den sofa
  34. my microwave, may I use the stovetop more…
  35. good enough. i am good enough. it is all good enough.
  36. my session last week with Dr K.
  37. what is coming of it: my determination to ENJOY the day – EACH day – on a different level – to fit in the things I LOVE. Even on my own! Fit. Them. In.
  38. Now am at PD. Grateful for that
  39. And good ride down
  40. and sitting next to colleague and
  41. is fine
  42. will have great lunch at restaurant
  43. and will get home early
  44. OR visit Ph and J again
  45. my hands
  46. that I can type
  47. Mozart
  48. this laptop (my personal one)

Journal April 25, 2018

What if, maybe,
I think I’m so ready,
but there is one more piece?
What if I have to be good, happy, okay, joyous, full, taking the walks and doing the nature stuff by myself.
J called “for nothing” I think, night before last. I think he’s changing. We’ve both changed… And yesterday I really concentrated on raising my vibration. Concentrated is the wrong word, but “you” know what I mean. And it was a day that filled me up.
We were treated to soft music, low lights, infused waters, herbal teas (I think herbal – I didn’t have one), and paraffin wax treatments, by the PTA.
I got a beautiful gift from a friend I’ve made through work but don’t see often. She’d just found out about my mother, and gave me a beautiful card and gift in a gorgeous gift bag with a special tag with hearts inside it. The gift was the book Box of Butterflies by Roma Downey. She told me it would have meaning and purpose for me. And it did.
I was filled up already.
Then I went to see J and Ph.

About my mother, there IS kind of a hole in my heart. My mind understands fully. For one thing, I have tremendous gratitude that she escaped the horrific life of suffering that was coming for her hard. Also, I know we all die. And, she was 92 years old. Last, she was surrounded by love her last weeks, and even passed holding J’s hand. Thank you, God.
But of course I miss my mother, my friend, and my mommy.

Today I will go to Professional Development. And I will remain filled. And I will take a walk, so that I don’t become dependent “All I ask is for you to walk with me! You can’t do THAT?”! Or to self, “I can’t walk alone. I can’t enjoy nature without J.”