Happy Happy Journal July 31 2018

 

The doctor called. Results came back all fine.
Another test waiting for results but “not related” more routine.
And – odd because is like scar tissue or something (nothing ever happened there) so she wants to see me in about 3 weeks and to check that hard part that goes into vaginal wall
Fine! Happy to go!

Now – the “work” is to look at those thoughts I had with my feet up in the stirups – that phew I don’t have to go away with D in Aug and that if dying, all I want is some good time with J. So I have some changes to make.
********But the REAL “work” is – to JUST FEEL GOOD. Be in the feel-good as much as possibly can.

Also – this has been a GOOD thing. Because I have just spent like 4 days on the positives. For maybe 2 hours total I was very nervous – and otherwise – positive positive positive. And eating better. and well – just literally filling myself with positivies.
Good.

If anyone reads my blog, I want to thank you. When I see numbers that some people ARE reading it, it means the world to me. That I’m not alone, and also that maybe I can inspire/help someone.
I shouldn’t say IF – the numbers show that some do xo

Later now –
My attitude has been: life. I am well or I am sick. Just live this moment best happiest way can.
Now my attitude can become: Life. I get what I want in this relationship or I don’t. Now just live this moment best happiest way can.

To remember and learn for future also though:
How disappointed I was “alone” and Jo’s coldness and what if the workers weren’t here working how alone  but how I turned that into: *I* will grow into new place by next year. *I* will take care of ME. Right now SELF-CARE and Universe and things will be different by next summer

and the greatest thing you (I  – we – one) can do is FEEL. GOOD. NOW. somehow. IN this moment feel good.

Much later now.
I feel good.
And I think this concentration – this focus on feel good and all this Hicks and Louis Hay “work” – practice not work 🙂 – has gotten me to feel that :
I MUST feel good.
I tis my JOB to feel good.
So, like instead of sitting here like, “Alone. No j> … … ” I am sitting here just feeling good. same circumstances. different feeling.
Wow.

– Later still:
May I never forget the lessons.
So easy to forget.
May I remember.
The lessons like:
Just. Feel. Good.
You will be well. you will be sick. Just enjoy this day. Live this day.
A new lease on life.
Don’t sweat the small stuff.
If not J, someone else.
Either don’t do the things you hate and dread, or find a way to love them!
Keep filling yourself with the positives. Because it works.
I didn’t WANT chemo. Or surgery. Or hospitalization.
I DID want work. And to not stress over it.
And friends. Loved ones.
Having house in order inside and out was such a comfort.
I can and want to put my OWN health mental and physical and spiritual, first.
I do have a great life.

 

Law of Attraction – 2nd today July 31 2018

from

Easiest Way To Get Into Receptive Mode [Learn To Receive]

What’s manifesting is based on where you’re hanging out on this emotional… whre your tuner is set.
Whatever your reception is about is all you’re letting in. overwhelming or victim or… whatever thoughts you are practicing.

Easy button — sleep
Always here for a moment when awaken until being pondering and considering dilemmas…

whatever been reveling in is usually what makes up your dreams

DON’T TRY TO CONTROL ANY OUTCOMES/ MANIFESTATION.
DO WHAT YOU CAN TO CONSIDER WHERE YOU ARE VIBRATIONALLY EMOTIONALLY.
– easy button approach.

Don’t make too much of it. Take whichever path is most upstream. If neither feel good, just let go and float upstream.
It’s about wanting to feel good and know what thoughts take you off.
Acknowledge that thought led to that and next time come across that thought, might have more control over it.
Decisions are about  how you FEEL not about the nitty gritty of what you are deciding.
Diffuse negative focus and in time it won’t be part of the mix.
At same time, focus more positiviely.
Is about how you feel and guiding yourself appropriately.

Receptive and replenishing mode are same
Everything you want comes from that.
Things YOU’VE specifically asked for so get into that receptive mode = most wonderful way to live life.

And just knowing when your’re there makes you more likely to want to do that
And do NOT beat up on self when in receptive mode of what not really want. Livein gin Step 5

Correlation between what think and feeling and how plays out
Even when don’t want – YOU are in charge of what comes = wonderful – deliberate creator of own experience.

In your NOW you have more latitude than you’ve been giving yourself credit

You have already filled your Vortex full of the decision that are important to you.
Now just watch how lovely life plays out.
You will witness the evidence of your alignment (or misalignment). The evidence of it is a lovely thing.

Facing reality keeps active the vibrations that keeps bringing the same results. It does not have to be that way. You are not facer you are creator of your reality!

Watch words of friends too. If not feel good – why worried about hurting their feelings by changing conversation?

Everything you’ve ever wanted, you’ve wanted so you’d feel better when get. Well –
****Feel better BEFORE you get it or else you can’t get it***
About the essence/ idea of it/ in receiving mode to even ask/ all of it. It’s time for you to start being proud of where you stand in this world. You’re doing really well. You are a MASTER OF CREATION!

Your worthiness is such that everything that you conclude is backed up and understood by Source completely. And the energy that creates worlds is focused on your behalf.
Time for you to line up with the focus that’s focused on your behalf. And if you do anything less than that, you’ll feel frustration, or worse.

Law of Attraction July 31 2018

From:

Receptive mode
Path of least resistance

There are no limitations for your inner being’s ability to reach you, wherever you are
the more relaxed you are…!
Chill and relax
Beach etc (she said, yes)

Focus not on what you want to let go, but on what you want to let IN.
Not letting go, or losing something. Letting in, and gaining something.
Getting INto the vortex. Getting INto the receptive mode.

Step 5 is not being mad at yourself for being in Step 1. – – Self – look up the steps.

Haha – and just now she gives them:
Step 1 Ask.
Because knowing what you don’t want and knowing what you do want causes you to ask.

Step 2 Not your work. Source answers. That’s what the Vortex is. That’s all that’s coming together. That’s that building of all that momentum in the Vortex.

Step 3 Being in receptive mode so that you can allow what you are asking for to come into your awareness.

Step 4 Mastering – becoming master of Step 3. In the category of not trying to let go of it but instead allowing it.
Getting a sense of what the FEELING of being in the receptive mode is

Step 5 Being aware that while you are most often in the rec mode because you have mastered it, that because of your powerful desire that you were born with that you will never give up, this powerful desire to continue to move forward to cont to have more things to ask for to cont to give birth to more desires – then Step 1 is a necessary and imp part of the equation
So Step 5 is understanding that. Understanding that Step 1 is gonna come up over and over again. But once you’ve mastered being in the receiving mode, then Step 1 is something that you don’t dread or fear or try to let go of; it’s something that you embrace. Because you understand that that’s where all the juice is.

Be consistently in that receptive mode = such a wonderful thing
Self – how – will look for that next. is ok…

Step 5 is understanding that the real world is ok. That the contrast is always serving you.
You are always NATURALLy fulafilling step 1
2 has never been your job. things like are drawn to – become bigger than you could acknowledge consciously
3 bec on beach/ chilled out/ let go/ not worried about this or that/ are in receptive mode/ often accidentally… just having followed natural instinct to want to feel good/
So 1, 2, 3 don’t even have to know about them!
But now is where the mastery comes in. Starting to notice the rel between how felt and what is turning out. there IS a vibrational  thing that’s going on that you can FEEL even before manifestation. Mastery of creation is – you gotta know what’s going on before there’s a manifestation that tells the tale of what’s going on.
Understanding that the bet you feel, the more in the receptive mode you are
Step 5 = relaxing in to the absolute understanding that it is right for you to have been born into a world of contrasts. Must fall in love with Step 1. Must love yourself so much no matter what is going on. Feel your worthiness no matter what’s going on.
V you offering powerful signal that L of A has been responding to for a very long time. The power of that V puts you in position of not ever having to fear where you are. Because the power of the V will always call you. It will always prevail.
Experience. Ask. Receive. While still here in this physical body.

Thank You.

Okay. So.

Step 1 Ask.
Because knowing what you don’t want and knowing what you do want causes you to ask.
**I want to be with someone. In a good relationship lifelong. And I want that someone to be J. But Your Will be done. I want it to be GOOD.
**I want my health.

Step 2 Not your work. Source answers. That’s what the Vortex is. That’s all that’s coming together. That’s that building of all that momentum in the Vortex.

Step 3 Being in receptive mode so that you can allow what you are asking for to come into your awareness.

Step 4 Mastering – becoming master of Step 3. In the category of not trying to let go of it but instead allowing it.
Getting a sense of what the FEELING of being in the receptive mode is

Step 5 Being aware that while you are most often in the rec mode because you have mastered it, that because of your powerful desire that you were born with that you will never give up, this powerful desire to continue to move forward to cont to have more things to ask for to cont to give birth to more desires – then Step 1 is a necessary and imp part of the equation
So Step 5 is understanding that. Understanding that Step 1 is gonna come up over and over again. But once you’ve mastered being in the receiving mode, then Step 1 is something that you don’t dread or fear or try to let go of; it’s something that you embrace. Because you understand that that’s where all the juice is.

 

Positive Aspects July 31 2018 #20

Write the name or a brief description of someone or something that you always feel good about.
Then: What do I like about you?
Why do I love you so much?
What are your positive aspects?

Me

What do I like about you?
You really try!
You try to do the RIGHT thing.
You have integrity.
You keep confidences.
You do not eat animals!
You are cute.
You are a good friend to your friends.
You look for the positives.
You care about others.
You have compassion.
You are good to children.
You are smart.
You are funny. People always tell you that.
You have spirituality.
You never ever give up.
You were so good to your mother.
You do not hold grudges. Ever!

Why do I love you so much?
You are me. I am here. (switching to I now, I think):
God made me.
I am of Higher Power
And Higher Power is in me.
I go for the Nobles causes.
I give at work because mainly of conscience.
And because also – I get paid so I owe a good job
When the kids are driving me crazy, I remember: This little one is someone’s sunshine and moon and stars! Treat him/her as such. (few times a year?)
On the rare occasion when that’s not enough (once a year? less?) I pretend there is a whole wall of 1-way mirror and everyone can see me. – See? I do WHATEVER it takes.
I have taken from my father, to try to see the best in everyone.
I love nature.
People like me.
I have inspired several.
I am honest.
I am kind.
I keep the big promises.
I am there when someone is suffering, to support.
I do what I have to every day.
I have made the TREMENDOUS change(s) it is huge, really. I am so proud of me.
I am loyal.
I truly WANT what’s best for others.
I love you because I really WANT to take care of you.
You have been through so much (switched to “you” because makes sense here, and coming back from positive aspects part below)
I WANT to comfort you.
I WANT you to have joy also.
I care for you, Dear One.
You ARE lovable. You ARE enough. You do not have to prove it anymore. You never did HAVE TO.

What are your positive aspects?
I sleep well.
I am a good cook.
I can plyay piano
I am creative.
I do beautiful need work. People have asked HOW I get it so beautiful. I have said: Two reasons. 1 is I do it for the enjoyment of the stitch. And 2 is Willingness to rip out.
I am a VERY fast typist.
I got my wherewithall from my mother.
I look for the best.
I have slowed down. A LOT> On purpose. It has taken work to do so.
i pray.
I have enough energy.
I am more mellow than I used to be. (although stil a way to go:)
I go to therapy.
I am generous
I have pretty hair.
I have beautiful eyes.
I have a pretty smile.
I am losing weight
I have beautiful breasts.
I have pretty feet.
I dress nicely every day now.
I even look cute in the things I wear to bed.
I keep a nice home.
I am welcoming
I am hospitable
I am fun and bright at ww meetings.
I am sincere

God bless me.

 

Journal July 31 2018

I have been ok – better than ok – since the dr news on Friday. I am SO grateful about this.
I had about – an hour and a half? last night when I was pretty nervous.
And – I ate. Oy. But if technically I am ok ’cause of weeklies. I had no toaster over or microwave on top of the nervousness (electrical work not finished) and I was too nervous.
But that’s not bad. VERY different than it would have been a few years ago!
So today or tomorrow I find out results of first test. After that is 2nd test.

A says I must tell J.
*I* feel -wait and tell J after know either way.

If I know me, I’ll probably be back here later… Will continue my spiritual stuff now, and then my health-life readings and piano and maybe a bit of painting… Maybe ww. Maybe some cooking.
Did the laundry yesterday. Will put away today.

And now, during youtube Hicks listening – hm – it makes sense – like when I used to do magazines, tv, and just keep nb nearby – my best thoughts would come to me – ’cause I was chilled—
Also – another positive – it is July 31 – I’d forgotten July has 31 days and had thought it was August 1. So I just gained a day:)
My instincts ARE good (the chill thing)
Also – NOW I can sit in yard to sit in yard
And last – for now – this C scare is a GOOD thing. Because it has nudged me to the take-care-of-self AND enjoy whatever-the-fuck I want, that I have always WANTED to live in summer

Reading July 31 2018

An inquiry into the true nature of receiving also reveals that receiving is a prelude to giving. Receiving and giving are two sides of the same coin. They are the yin and yang of creation. They are the vice versa of abundance. In other words, your capacity to receive is what determines your capacity to give; and the more freely you give, the more freely you are given to.
Robert Holden Ph.D.

 

Affirmations July 31 2018

I am an open channel for creative ideas.

I handle my own life with joy and ease.

I rejoice in the love I encounter every day, your love and my love.

I am in perfect health.

I am safe!

Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.

 

Ok – Let’s Do Every-the-Fuck Gratitude Can Think of ’cause nervousness coming big uh oh help me…

  1. life
  2. breath
  3. freedom
  4. safety
  5. no colon cancer
  6. eyesight
  7. house
  8. windows
  9. doors
  10. ac
  11. heat
  12. tvs
  13. washer and dryer
  14. when electrician leaves i can – and will – do laundry
  15. and have all i need for tomorrow
  16. and cook the peppers
  17. and maybe the pasta e fagiola with spinach?
  18. my birds are chirping
  19. B is playing a little
  20. they are talking – were quarreling before
  21. i have hair
  22. i can hear
  23. i an drive
  24. i can wal
  25. we (fam and I) walked a lot Saturday
  26. yesterday i had a nice day
  27. my mother’s example dealing with scary things
  28. thich Nhat Hanh
  29. prayer
  30. dali lama
  31. God
  32. higher Power
  33. Nature
  34. Universe
  35. Abraham Hicks
  36. Esther hicks
  37. Louise Hay
  38. that I can read
  39. I take care of my birdie boys
  40. some people read this blog.
  41. i am not alone
  42. i have a therapist
  43. i have Tr
  44. and MT
  45. and AM
  46. and M
  47. and O
  48. and St
  49. KB
  50. SB
  51. D
  52. Jo. Maybe. Kind of
  53. J. Maybe. To whatever extent
  54. MA all those years
  55. Lessons. Every lesson I hae learned
  56. I have a job
  57. helping childfen
  58. i have an opthamologist
  59. I have a gynocologist
  60. and a practice with internists
  61. i have my spirituality
  62. and piano
  63. and painting
  64. and hope
  65. i am loveable
  66. I do have lovable qualities. Like: honesty
  67. sticktoitiveness
  68. compassion
  69. confidence-keeping
  70. pretty
  71. funny
  72. intelligent
  73. loyal!
  74. hard-working
  75. can laugh
  76. can relax
  77. good friend to my friends
  78. don’t eat animals
  79. keep my home clean
  80. own it by myself
  81. did a LOT to get to that
  82. have been through some VERY hard time. Have GOTTEN through them. And I can – and will – get through this too.
  83. maybe do have total health
  84. if not, will be cured.
  85. “They’re” calling vaginal cancer “quite rare”
  86. So maybe this is VAIN.
  87. or maybe not even that.
  88. God is with me
  89. my education
  90. my upbringing – even though some VERY hard parts
  91. i can speak
  92. i can eat
  93. i can swallow
  94. i can digest
  95. i can absorb
  96. i can eliminate
  97. my hands. They do so much for me. Including
  98. My hands type
  99. and my hands play piano
  100. and my hands take care of things around here
  101. and the birds
  102. and myself
  103. and cook
  104. and feed me
  105. and clean me
  106. and comfort children
  107. and comforted my mother
  108. and me in that situation
  109. my feet
  110. and how they’ve healed even after real problems
  111. that *I* healed after not being able to walk etc etc
  112. and after hysterectomy
  113. and after pneumonias
  114. and heartache
  115. I have a therapist
  116. I have a cleaning lady
  117. KB
  118. KC
  119. DS
  120. L
  121. A
  122. Enough to pay my bills each month
  123. and then some
  124. all the work I’ve had/am having done on my home
  125. including roof
  126. chimney
  127. stucco
  128. painting exterior
  129. 2 fences
  130. garden out front
  131. other garden out front – around tree
  132. garden out back
  133. little wall brick out back
  134. other straight-line garden out back
  135. wood and steps out back
  136. side walkway
  137. back walkway
  138. pavers on patio
  139. perrennial out back
  140. and front
  141. and side
  142. attic clean
  143. basement clean
  144. garage clean
  145. indoor painting
  146. and l.r. ceiling fix 2 places (or was it three?)
  147. half new kitchen
  148. interior painting
  149. brand new bathroom
  150. new washer
  151. new dryer
  152. new tvs – 2
  153. new Sleep Number bed
  154. new l.r. sofa
  155. new l.r. loveseat
  156. new table and 2 little ottomans
  157. new den sofa
  158. retaining wall
  159. peninsula
  160. steps front in progress
  161. electrical work
  162. heat in sunroom
  163. new water heater
  164. new microwave
  165. new stove
  166. driveway next
  167. then sidewalk. WOW
  168. Jo’s work and his company’s work
  169. and his kids
  170. and his friendship
  171. that he brings me coffee
  172. rugs
  173. the pretty pink thing on my sofa
  174. red oak floors
  175. the new new little treelings outside – both in honrof my mother
  176. chatting with A in pm right now
  177. his little pets:)
  178. and the big ones too
  179. Skin-So-Soft to keep bugs away
  180. and it’s sunscreen too
  181. good strong legs I have
  182. my healthy liver
  183. my healthy kidneys
  184. my healthy lungs
  185. my healthy heart
  186. my healthy vagina – now or later or both
  187. I have good blood pressure – great blood pressure
  188. my sense of humor
  189. A’s tremendous supoprt
  190. hope. hope in all ways. hope.
  191. The Law of Attraction
  192. meditation
  193. that I hav helped others
  194. and will, more!
  195. and maybe even dogs
  196. Jo was just here to pick up the electrician
  197. who is coming back tomorrow
  198. and he, Jo, was warm to me again
  199. I’m feeling better than couple of hours ago
  200. Many people live long healthy happy lives with an after cancer and I can too PLUS might not even HAVE it
  201. my skin. it’s healthy AND
  202. it’s pretty
  203. my teeth
  204. that my parents paid for me to get them starightened
  205. they are white ENOUGH
  206. i have enough
  207. water. i have enough water
  208. that it all worked out with the electrician today.
  209. and that i was nice to give and gave him flavored bottle water plus big glass of cold water plus a plum –
  210. and he wanted and thanked
  211. and I showed him bathroom and said feel free to use it
  212. THAT that feels so much better than when tense-acting
  213. and it does
  214. my cells know what to do
  215. I can heal – again  I always have:)
  216. I do not have diabetes
  217. I do not have heart condition
  218. my healthy spleen
  219. my healthy appendix
  220. i have gotten through surgeries
  221. i have been loved
  222. I AM loved
  223. that I painted yesterday
  224. All those times MA was there for me
  225. and “The Doctor”
  226. and J
  227. and ML
  228. cousin P babysitting kindness when I was little
  229. MY coming to the realization: We slept in the same room for goodness sake, AND we wil die one day – all the rest of this is bullshit – and opening up to my sister
  230. with NO expectation, for real!
  231. that i HAVE family now
  232. I live in America
  233. I’m grateful that my grandparents settled exactly where they did
  234. my grandmother’s love (maternal
  235. and grandfather’s
  236. and my paternal ones also
  237. my auntR
  238. my auntL
  239. my uncle Ch and Aunt J
  240. my Aunt M and Uncle G
  241. my cousin K
  242. and Jn
  243. and L
  244. and L
  245. and B
  246. and Jo
  247. and Mg
  248. my piano practicing today
  249. 2 perfect food days. planning to end this as the third in a row:)
  250. I can change on a dime. and have!
  251. all the great reading I did today
  252. fb
  253. protein. i just had a 20-grams-of-protein dinner
  254. peppers. Especially roasted or air-fried
  255. spelt bread
  256. water right from my taps
  257. towels
  258. 2nd load of laundry just about ready
  259. sitcoms
  260. including Two and a Half men
  261. Golden Girsl Frasier
  262. The Nanny
  263. Mike & Molly
  264. Everybody Loves Raymond
  265. King of Queens
  266. Seinfeld
  267. The Big Bang Theory
  268. my bed
  269. pillows
  270. that I fall asleep so easily
  271. and sleep well
  272. through the whole night
  273. and have such interesting dreams
  274. and most of the, by far, pleasant!
  275. that I DID the two loads of laundry tonight
  276. i have sheets
  277. multiple sets! (I didn’t always)
  278. i have a comforter
  279. and a bedspread
  280. and decorative pillows even too
  281. and one extra pillow – besides the four on the bed behind the docorative ones!
  282. i have 2 new bathmats!
  283. I LOVE my bathroom. I LOVE it. LOVE it.
  284. the marble-looking subway tile walls.
  285. the almost-cement-looking although gray not beige – arge floor tiles – with like – sparkles!
  286. the trim!
  287. the glass tile omg the glass tile!
  288. the colors
  289. everything!
  290. I love being in there; I love looking at it
  291. I love that I am about to finish day 3 perfect eating
  292. and that I drink so much more now (water and flavored waters I mean!)
  293. that I really don’t drink alcohol. (Maybe in last 3 years I had 1 weak drink and 2  half-glasses of wine)
  294. that drugs do NOT call to me. never did.
  295. and that the couple – 3? – times I smoked pot, I hated it SO MUCH. so tha didn’t call. it was stupid to try but I’m so glad i didn’t like it. Lucky
  296. That I am READY to take even better care of myself
  297. and have started
  298. word games
  299. including online
  300. and irl Boggle
  301. and Pyramid
  302. and Scrabble
  303. fb
  304. my groups that i administrate
  305. parakeets
  306. parrots
  307. dogs
  308. cats
  309. hamsters
  310. guinea pigs
  311. fish
  312. turtles
  313. ferrets
  314. rabbits
  315. Wheel of Fortune
    jeopardy
  316. my memory
  317. that I’ve “alwasy” done so well in school
  318. as a student
  319. and a teacher
  320. that I can read
  321. and do
  322. that i have gotten over terrible depressions
  323. I can swallow
  324. my blood is good
  325. my veins are good
  326. my bones are good
  327. i am strong
  328. my sun ww leader
  329. my Sat ww leader
  330. my Sun ww group
  331. my Sat ww group
  332. other Sat ww group
  333. the leader I had last week
  334. and the L one I’ve had sometimes

 

 

 

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Gratitudes July 30 2018

  1. I see Jo’s truck and at least one worker outside now yay
  2. I’m glad I didn’t call – since it would have been like a minute ago and he was (they were) almost here!
  3. There is hope. There is hope for my health.
  4. and I even think I will be fine
  5. M thinks I AM fine
  6. I am so grateful that i can see! I was worried about that in my TWENTIES! And here I ma 🙂 🙂 🙂
  7. Don’t worry, Honey (Self). I am grateful for telilng self don’t worry
  8. I am grateful for having my therapist
  9. I am grateful that I *painted* yesterday!
  10. I am grateful for veggies
  11. Abraham Hicks
  12. Esther Hicks
  13. Louise Hay
  14. hope
  15. that I can read
  16. and think
  17. and meditate
  18. and let go more and more
  19. I am grateful that I can walk
  20. I am grateful that I can drive

more in a bit

Positive Aspects July 30 #19

Write the name or a brief description of someone or something that you always feel good about.
Then: What do I like about you?
Why do I love you so much?
What are your positive aspects?

Cooking and Preparing Food

What do I like about you?
That I am able.
That my momma taught me.
That I CAN – and now DO – care for myself.
I can buy and cook fresh organic veggies
And frozen ones too.
And even canned.
You’re enjoyable
you’re creative
I can do for company too
And to bring to things
I can make (vegan) spanikopita
And (vegan) chocolate chip cookies
All vegan:
And lasagna
and casseroles
and soups
and stews
And pizza
and pastas
and truffles
and so much more
I have a good stove to do it on
and in – oven
and an air fryer
and toaster oven
and even a microwave
I have a fridge to keep the food in
and a freezer
and counters
and cutting borards
and knives
pots
pans
I have recipes
from my omther
from myself
from books and mags
from J
I have so many health things :
the braised cabbage and seitan
the braised cabbage and kidney beans and arborio rice
the lentil soup
I can even heat up canned soups
I can make anything I want
and I DO cook now
and have nice homemade food here most of the times
Today will make pasta e fagiola with spinach (from Appetite for Rduction)
I am grateful that I finally cook regularly

Why do I love you so much?
I have hope in you.
You change me for the better at even a cellular level
You afford me delicious things
I can see, and read, and touch, and taste, and smell, and create
I feel good while DOING
My father and his mindful way(s)…
I just had a good (cooked) breakfast
I like simply prepared things like pb on good bread lol and cooked things too
I can eat lots of seasonal things
Like squashes
and summer squash
heating the oven in the fall
Using stove top now
and slow cooker!
You give me health
and vibrancy
and weight loss
I am so ready now. Am doing.
I love that you are tradition from thousands of years ago.
Down through my grandparents – all 4 –
and both my parents
and me
I love that I gave that dinner party in college days – with my mother’s support and help:)
and the cakes I made through her
the marble one that fell – and she whipped up a from-scratch homemade sponge cake for me to take that time 🙂
i love that I’e had company for nice dinners
and throw-together lunches too
I love making chickpea salad for sandwiches
and potato salad – which I shall make soon:)
I love having leftover dinner for lunch
and even for breakfast
I love that I can bring my own lunches to school
in my little lunch bag with the ice things in it
I love sandwiches!
and canned soups lol
even salads
with roasted chickpeas
The act of cooking is empowering.
And the house smells good
Onions
I have loved cooking together with people. Ji…
That last Thanksgiving when my mother was here at the house – we had the greatest time. And after dinner, later, decided to make brownies and play Scrabble!
the uncles
aunts
cousins
vegan cooking
good for the animals

What are your positive aspects?
You are here
You are available
You are always here for me.
You feed me
You give me foods even to freeze.
Chili
Hot cereal
Grains
Quinoa (which, although people call it a grain, is not)
Makes for conversation
Can make different ethnicities’ foods. Italian, American, Greek, Japanese, Chinese, Indian, African (from so many countries that they don’t name one = sweet potato peanut stew)
I can put laundry in and cook while it’s doing and in about 1 1/2 hours have enough foods for the WEEK
Or, cook a little every night or two
MY choice
I can use tempeh instead of “fake meats”
I can even heat fruits if so desired
Good to talk about.
People share ideas
Sharing food is good socially.
As is talking about it.

Thank You Thank You Thank You