Affirmations Aug 31 2018

My life is joyously balanced with work and play

I rejoice in the love I encounter every day.

I experience love wherever I go. Loving people fill my life, and I find myself easily expressing love to others.

Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.

Let’s Do the Gratitudes – 100 – Aug 31 2018

1. I am grateful that my classroom is ready. I made the deadline. It was hard to this year, and I do have things shoved in closets and drawers – but it is ready.
2. The room is ready, AND I am heart and soul ready,
3. AND my plans for the week…
4. that nurse (who is my friend and I are together on the behalf of the new kid with the needs.
5. and that she is inspiring me in that way
6. I will be fine. I am fine.
7. Tomorrow is my very special event!
8. Have the directions written out (plus will use the app)
9. getting pocket book ready
10. have the signed ticket ready
11. will be on time or early for getting seat!
12. I have no fear about exposing myself, my question, my issue there in front of so many and even on tape even video!
13. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zTtnrHee3HA
14. “You train your perception to translate the world” Hicks
15. I can see!
16. I can hear!
17. I have the book, Ask and You Shall Receive
18. I can sleep
19. I have the book, The Vortex
20. I am off from work today.
21. I hae a sweet house
22. I keep int in good enough order.
23. I have money enough for food
24. and clothes
25. I have my clothes lined up for tomorrow
26. I have a good car
27. with gas in it
28. and it’s maintained
29. and registered
30. and inspected
31. I have a good mechanic
32. I have changed my life for the much much much better in the last 3 years!
33. i have a good dentist
34. and gynocologist
35. and eye doctor
36. and therapist
37. i have jammies (i didn’t always)
38. and sheets (ditto)
39. i am nice
40. i am professional
41. i am approachable
42. i am emotionally available
43. i am helpful
44. i am generous
45. i. am. ready.
46. i am making that nice blanket for J
47. i have good digestive system
48. i will lose all my excess weight this year. i know i will
49. i have ww nearby
50. and oa too
51. and clothing stores
52. and malls
53. and food stores
54. and health food stores
55. my dear birdy boys
56. my friendship with L
57. A
58. D
59. St
60. M
61. Tr
62. MT
63. I found out who my aide will be this year
64. i am happy about it
65. she will be too ( I would love to tell her but we are sworn to secrecy)
66. my patio with the pavers now
67. my tv in den
68. i did my laundry this morning:)
69. i have been invited somewhere possibly tomorrow afternoon
70. i am nervous – it. is. not. deadly. to be nervous! it’s okay!
71. i watered last night and this morning! yay me
72. i maybe won’t have to pay for those expensive sprinklers – maybe can attach what have to timer and 2 more (MUCH cheaper than sprinklers)
73. my new necklace. Oh my, do I love it!
74. our gym teacher
75. our art teacher
76. our librarian
77. the list of positive aspects
78. i WILL sleep tonight!
79. my alarm clock
80. and i will set a back-up tonight!
81. that the crap-eating leaves me feeling emotionally bad – cause THAT stops me
82. that I don’t eat animals!
83. the positive aspects practice
84. keeping my mind busy
85. piano!
86. feeling more positive having done and doing this!
87. might meet people tomorrow even! – for ongoing study group … friendship..
88. I am a free person
89. i am employed
90. my new front steps
91. Jo will be back I’ll prob see him Tues eve
92. hair cut/color coming tues! 🙂
93. i can speak ( i couldn’t always)
94. i can breathe – usually easily ( i couldn’t always)
95. my mother is no longer suffering
96. maybe she is even with my father…
97. my feet. the one healed!
98. O
99. J
100. my school
101. my neighborhood
102. i can walk
103. my neighbors

Positive Aspects #35 Aug 31

Write the name or a brief description of someone or something that you always feel good about.
Then: What do I like about you?
Why do I love you so much?
What are your positive aspects?

(Some of the) People I Work with

What do I like about you?
Our P.E. teacher is nice to the children
and creative
and hard-working
and energetic
with a sense of humor
and engagement
and is kind and fair
and very caring of dear MT
and – bonus – is now and almost-total vegan:)
Our librarian is organized
and very bright
and strong
and capable
and a fine example
and fair
and likes me
and goes out of her way – like if I mention something, I’ll find book in my mailbox:)
she is kind to children
and steady- even with them
and totally age appropriate
she is musical
she behaves cheerfully
Our art teacher is amazing!
she is lovely inside and out
and works hard
and is endlessly energetic
ALWAYS cheerful
and welcoming
and very warm
and of course talented
Our principal “gets” me
she s even warm with me
I hae done things for her.
oooh – me! *I* am kind to children
and really care about them
and nothing stops me from doing the job well!
they learn and they LOVE me
they feel and know they are safe – emotionally as well as physically – with me
I am really THERE for them
AND for their parents
Most of the parents really care for their children and are just trying to do all they need
And do really appreciate me (at LEAST *come to* really appreciate me!)
Our secretary is so competent
and good to me
Our nurse does not make mistakes! She is SO good at her job!
and kids FEEL good with her
and she is my friend!
Our assistant principal “gets” me
and is good to me
and trusts me
I get great reviews
My grade-level teaching mate N, has become a friend
and we help each other as need be
she is a VERY good teacher
K teacher with whom I’ve been buddy-classed, loves me
and is a great teacher
and we will do some shared activities together again!
one of the 4th gr teaches is SO nice
and another appreciates ME
our head custodian is so good at doing his work
and fair
our area custodian is a lovely human being
who also does the job
our speech teacher is LOVELY, and a kind-of friend
our learning resource teachers are BOTH *GREAT*!
I respect them both – totally
One is almost intimidating to me, but through no fault of her own – she is just that good
And the other – is a love
and SO safe and good for the children
they keep their records
and know their jobs!
and are such supports!
TR is the most *amazing* aide – and my good friend!
BV is a good aide for me
And both LOVE being in my room!
All of our aides are nice, and lovely. And they work. We are very fortunate!
Even our piano technician is wonderful – and
had an entire new action put in for me!
M is even there

Why do I love you so much?
I lvoe you so much because I work there
and have devoted SO MUCH of my adult life to it
and you being decent and good – and
us all being helpful to each other – almost ALL – makes it so much easier
it is decent
and good for the kids too
Oh! and there’s SB, from other school!
and – I even met MA that way ❤ ❤
and ML ❤ ❤
I can love going in – not like that bad year long ago…

What are you positive aspects?
We are all, as NR from other school used to say, in this together.
and we really are
I laugh
chat
smile
throughout the days
EVERYBODY *wants* to be happy…
And this year, because of N’s courage and M’s fairness, I finally do NOT have the worst class over L  Thank You!
People try.
I am inspired by them
I even used to say to J< “I am so honored to get to work with these people” and he would say – “you ARE one of these people!”
I have socialized outside of school with wome
Even our sub nurse is awesome and we have become friends and once socialized and will again
Some even plan social events for us…

We are all decent.
We all mean well.

Thank You.

Journal Aug 31 2018

I really must stay away from junk.
I stay away from those cookies (which I still *want,* like the plague. Because of how my emotions suffer after.
Well, I have to wonder how much of this extended down AND nervous time is due to the junk (licorice and a crunchy snack from 7-11) last night!
NOT worth it.
Mainly – I CAN stay away when is for my *emotinos.*

Also – I don’t want to live in fear anymore INCLUDING like must rest because so much this week and omg if I don’t get enough sleep…

Reading Aug 31 2018

For Today:

Man is as full of potentiality as he is of impotence. George Santayana

Hope and hopelessness are part of my disease. Hope tells me there is a better way; hopelessness says, “What’s the use?” I recognize hopelessness for what it is: my mind protecting me from disappointment. Hopelessness served at one time, but I don’t need that device today. I have a Higher Power that gives me everything I need. I am willing to continue to cast out old ideas, to keep turning my life over to the care and protection of God. Therein lies hope.

For today: My potential is in direct proportion to my willingness to let go of the shackles of self-will, to get out of my own way. On one end of the scale, I accomplish wonders; on the other, I am powerless.

My takeaway:
I like this. My new – haven’t had one for a long time – sponsor suggesting reading it.
“I have a Higher Power that gives me everythign I need. I am willing to continue to cast out old ideas,
to keep turning my life over the the care and protection of God.
Therein lies hope.
— But I DON’T think I have to “let go of self-will” totally! We’ll see… I *think* we just mean different things by it, this reading and I.

 

Gratitudes Aug 30 2018

1. my necklace did come
2. and I LOVE it!
3. lovely chat with DS this morning
4. awakened HORRIBLE welts and itches on arm oh no! but the gratitude is after trying different things, the itch is gone now.
5. got a lot done yesterday
6. principal loved the way I looked
7. didn’t go to 7-11. was very tempted but didn’t do it!
8. MT told me she had what I had and it was fine. yay!
9. my sponsor is back! I was worried about her, and worried for my sake. it was phone trouble…
10. I am grateful that yesterday morning I felt some nervousness about the paper work etc not done – because I WILL get it done this 4 day weekend so it is off my head when kids come in Tuesday
11. meeting was 1/2 hour short
12. time with MT
13. I didn’t get the 4 I really shouldn’t have gotten. For once!
14. good enough. the CONCEPT of good enough AND
15. the fact that my room / readiness are/ will be GOOD ENOUGH.
16. air conditioned place for meetings now.
17. i meditated 15 minutes yesterday morning. guided. hicks.
18. claritin. oh am i grateful fro claritin
19. my food list and plan for coming week. should be able to save another 55 or 60 (toward necklace payoff)
20. my house
21. all will be straightened before I leave
22. as was yesterday
23. cute outfit for today too
24. tues will be haircut after school
25. i can do this. remembering that i’ve done it so many times before. and i CAN do this
26. my hands
27. my skin
28. medicines when needed
29. comedies
30. tonight can shop for food IF want
31. can go to oa IF want
32. can just come home and chill if want

Affirmations Aug 30 2018

All that I seek is already within me.

I look within to find my treasures.

I am an open channel for creative ideas.

You are a unique beautiful soul.

I am a unique beautiful soul.

I am in perfect health.
Thank You!

I now free myself from destructive fears and doubts.

I draw love and acceptance into my life, and I accept it now.

Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.

I release all feelings of negativity & guilt.

I let my light shine.

 

OA Aug 29 2018

So
I got a sponsor.
I had asked something online. Months ago.
She popped up last Mon asking if I still was in need of a sponsor. I FELT like – I don’t know about this – but I said ok
I have now had 9 days on program! She accepts and does ww; she does NOT require that I “turn over my food;” she sticks to the program; once a day contact typing for maybe half an hour and I like it. Not stress.
AND
I am working Step 7 with her.

Right now I am praying for release of, and working on it:
gluttony
impatience
gossip

*Last night she didn’t show up for our appointment, and I sincerely hope she’s ok. For her and for me.

Positive Aspects Aug 29 #34

Write the name or a brief description of someone or something that you always feel good about.
Then: What do I like about you?
Why do I love you so much?
What are your positive aspects?

Weight Watchers
-I’m almost sure I’ve done this one before but it’s fine

What do I like about you?
You are there,
You are affordable.
You are science-based.
I know people who’ve done wonderfully with you!
Including in oa.
There are meetings so convenient to me!
I have been to many since last summer. And I can think of right now, withoug looking, so many that i like! I like:
Sunday morning
Monday evening
Wednesday morning
Friday evening
Saturday morning
Saturday afternoon
And – there is another place, also near enough, that I also like! Wow!
There own products – which you do NOT have to buy – are removing chemicals now. (I don’t touch most of them because palm oil, and not vegan anyway, but some)
The receptionists are nice.
The scales are accurate.
The other people are nice.
Particularly at my “regular” meetings, we are quite friendly. Have formed a community.
The room is comfortable. Heat, a/c, chair, decor…
The price is perfectly doable for me.
The app!
The app has a bar code scanner for all foods with a bar code! SO helpful and convenient.
And 24/7 chat (which I’ve used a few times)
And Connect, which is like fb for ww.
And articles
And food lists
And much more.
I don’t, but you can track on it also.
It comes WITH the monthly pass.

Why do I love you so much?
I meet people.
Have had somewhere here even.
You saved me when I was so lonely.
You have good bathrooms.
The leader on Sunday near me!
Cheerful.
Hopeful.
Pleasant.
I’m eating a lot, eating well, and losing weight.
I don’t go to bed hungry.
I cook mostly once a week.
I eat veggies
And fruits.
The deep breath I just took thinking about you. Thank you.
I can have some “goodies” (that do not set me off) and still lose weight.
*We now are so open and honest at meetings. It’s not all “cruise/ party, fun… weight.” People admit and the program acknowledges what *I’ve* always had: nighttime eating, lonely eating, angry eating, avoidance eating, depressive eating…
They address mindfulness!
And gratitude!
And walking outside!
And sleep!
And hobbies/fun!
SO well-rounded now.
And HEALTHY eating (not the “diet-coke-cake”mentality anymore!)
*I* am even of service there! Yay:)
I crochet there.
*I* no longer go to criticize and judge and not incorporate.
My oa sponsor accepts. And does. Ahh

What are your positive aspects?
You have come further than ever before.
In HEALTH.
In EMOTIONS.
The meetings aren’t disappointingly short anymore.
They sell things like teas, and measuring things, cookbooks, not all foods.
Even veg cookbooks wow!
You can skip weigh-ins as much as feel need/want to.
They look to celebrate.
And to help when you need.
It’s kind of a level playing field.
We inspire each other.
You get a weekly little booklet now! I LOVE that!
Something like over 200 zero-point foods!
Including vegan proteins like lentils, beans, chickpeas, tofu.
I am eating more veg now
and fruit
I can DO this
The weekly extra points!
It IS enough food.
I am not too shy to speak there!
You talk about things like steps in a day and growing older with more ease and flexibility
REGULAR though – not like super-stars and I can’t meet it.

Thank You Thank You Thank You!

 

 

 

Affirmations Aug 29 2018

I take in and give out nourishment in perfect balance.

My body takes me everywhere easily and effortlessly.

I rejoice in the love I encounter every day.

I am beautiful and everybody loves me.

I choose to feel good about myself each day. Every morning I remind myself that I can make the choice to feel good.

Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward toe very moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.

I am wonderful. I rejoice in the truth of my being. I accept it as so and let it be.

No matter what I choose to believe or say, the universe always says yes to me. Therefore, I choose only positive thoughts and words.

Thank You. Thank You. Thank You.