(Beg is repeat from yesterday)
To start on a subject that has a lot of momentum going, when you’ve got beliefs that are blocking it, doesn’t work very well.
How does bg in rel feel?
nurtured – but good yet feels a little needy which needy is not in vortex – so keep offering words – and the girl does –
words that describe the FEELING that you are reaching for.
A is saying must come from same place as this alignment…
When you’re connected with you, then you can find someone who is connected with you.
When you’re not, and you’re looking for someone to MAKE the connection, then it keeps not happening.
Must hook up with someone to match what’s in your Vortex. But must BE a vibrational match to what have put into my Vortex.
Must understand what’s IN there!
want indep and freedom and play yet want this thing that is dep and less free?
my answers to her questions:
believe I have a Vortex
it has a lot of components on this subject
have been putting them there incrementally and they have gestated and are ready for me to be ready for them?
if so, the only question is how can I be ready for what is ready for me
And how do you know if you’re not ready? feels like neg emotion. ARE ready = positive emotion.
So this conversation is not about making something happen so can be happy – is about being happy in this conversation.
Not about accomplishing something so I can get to the manifestation. Is about being happy. Making the connection with my Inner Being so I don’t even need the connection with another human. When have made that, so that don’t even need or want, someone also in that place of connection will flow into your experience and you say, “I’ve been looking for you.”
I Have the ABSENCE of that feeling. SADNESS that it’s not there. Other people have true love and I can’t get it right.
So that’s a step 1 moment.
Would like it to be a step 5 where feeling but not mad at self for feeling it.
KNOW what don’t and do want
And not very far from being in that place I want.
Get happy and then that happiness will be reflected in all these different ways.
Exhilerated might be too far from where this vibration is in me.
In my experience – rel. most feels like what
She said fun and am best are.
I would say security and belonging.
If something I want hasn’t manifested yet, I am offering a vibration in opposition to it.
Absence of rel. feels like:
hurts inside my stomach
no one to back me up
no one specificially assigned to be on my side
sort of emptiness
(Some of these are help by A)
You create your own reality. So as far as that goes with me, it is:
Why am I not doing a better job of creating something I want! (rather than, “who’s preventing me from it)
The creation of my Vortex MEANS that what I want is vibrationally already there.
So how to turn those vibrations to the things that I want.
Do NOT drum up old stories or beliefs that support the other.
I HAVE created a Vortex and my Vortex CAN COME TO ME!
It is in the Vortex. I just need to get it out.
Must figure out how to get it out.
Must line up with it. Am doing bad job of lining up with it because “all day every day” focused on –
it is not unfolding to me easily –
GET OFF THE SUBJECT!
Must give self relief from thoughts keep thinking, in direct opposition to what I want.
MUST put thoughts on another subject that’s working, all the time.
could be prosperity or whatever – Self – try for 5 days!
DE-ACTIVATE the issue by ACTIVATING something ELSE
When you de-activate the issue, which is just the contradictory thoughts, then the Vortex on the issue becomes dominant and things start unfolding for you.
If have 5 subjects, and 4 are not working and 1 is, focus on the one that is working! CREATE a vibration of receptive mode that lets the other 4 work.
And if 4 work well and 1 doesn’t, focus on any one of the 4 that is, and the other one will too.
THAT is their encouragement
But if an extreme exception, because CANNOT get off the subject, (as this girl), then
MUST focus self upon the desire – clarify it – accept it like it really is.
It’s about something really simple.
I’ve got a desire that I spend entire air times focused on its opposite.
(Everyone does that)
So – some strong statements A wants to make:
If your desire is strong enough, it doesn’t matter what you believe – your desire will triumph.
Break down and explain why:
If your desire is strong enough, that means it is gestated in the Vortex. You’re feeling it enough that the essence of who I am is about it more than about the beliefs that would be contradicting it. Because, beliefs, unless they’re activated, are dormant.
You keep focusing on beliefs and activating them so must make those activations about somebody else. – Is easier to help others find true love because don’t have beliefs about them so don’t have resistance about them so desire is pure about them.
So be like own client (she does this for a living).
Present self to perspective match – to know about the true you. Me: Giving, loving, joyous, kind, generous, independent now!, passionate, not scared now…
Independent but want somebody to stick up for me – so A wants to know – feel the clash? Yes I do! Resistance in I’m independent but want someone to lean on. Pick one.
So I’ll pick lean on.
But is sticking point, A says because were born ind and coming into alignment with the energies of the universe, with the Source within me, and my desires – I”m not independent from powers, from all that, from THAT partnership – so want THAT partnership to be THE GREATEST PARTNERSHIP. Or every other rel will come down in the process, because that is so dominant. That is who I really am.
[Self – can’t it be ind in some ways AND want someone to lean on?!]
So wanting to lean on someone = the biggest falsehood ever tried to offer to universe at large cause everything about me is knowing something that is different from that. So feel what’s going on:
Actually saying, from the matching world: I want to love you and you to love me (as everyone wants); our rel. to be dominant above all things, and want to be able to lean on you when I need you.
Where what saying from harmonics with Inner Being is: I am already engaged with the Power of the Universe. THIS is my first and foremost and most important relationship. And in my alignment, and in my strength, I will have plenty to give, and there can be a recipricol flow back and forth. But there’s no need in me.
THAT is the big contradiction in my vibration right there.
Need to be understood – and yet, not always show it like at work. But alignment is “boring” to others so i don’t need the world, a person, or anyone to understand me. Only have to know how UNDERSTOOD I really am.
A really wants me to hear this:
I am SO understood by my Source energy, my Inner Being, and what’s in my Vortex is SO understood. Not gonna get some relationship that is less than what is understood. MUST come into vibrational alignment with what is understood about me.
Choices here (easy to get idea what they’re going for) from A (no right or wrong but some not of benefit:
* R u looking for rel with anot to demonstrate autonomy OR to compensate for not having it? (Wow)
Looking for someone to shore me up when everything about who I really am does not want me to look for something that isn’t needed, and even more, does not want me to need it. (My Inner Being won’t let it work out if not right!)
* Looking for someone to focus upon so that best of each other can come out and play with each other. OR someone who will see in you something that I can’t find in myself. Want not need flattery and he doesn’t either – just both so in alignment that can’t help but gush over each other!
Whoa – Self – maybe can’t work also because HE not there????
Believe it: This relationship has been gestating.
Once something’s manifested in dream state and feels lovely like in the dream state, it means that I’m on the vibrational beat of it. Once m in dr st, means those ARE thoughts turning to things. In dream state, but still part of the evidence of thoughts turning to things.
Feel better – girl does and I do too. . .
(Play meditation or youtube Hicks right before bed, self!)
Just listening to it isn’t enough! Just listening to someone else who’s in alignment is better than listening to someone who’s not, but isn’t enough. What IS enough is this process of recognizing that my Inner Being knows it and that I must find thoughts that give me the resident feeling of alignment. So just watch the stories that I tell. Can’t ignore this. Must hit it head on. Bec desire is strong and have been holding self in vibration that is not really serving me. So, when have opportunity is imp. to focus upon this in a way that I really feel energy move.
Felt A help me to identify who my Inner Being is and how I really feel.
And wouldn’t allow saying things, or add momentum to things that didn’t give me resonance about that. That’s the words. Do NOT allow the momentum to get going.
First thing in morning best (any time can but first thing in morning) bec while sleep momentum subsides so when first wake up, turn attention to what want. It’s just getting out there a little bit ahead of it.
Will start noticing that as you feel satisfaction in your singularity, then everything in the world begins to yield to you. But when feel lack – on any one subject, especially a subject that matters so much, then you just block it as fast as you call it.
That girl, like me = with money, ah, another “deal” (her word cause different job) will come. Who cares… –
Focus now upon the manifested, and keep it going.
Focus on conditions that please me, and keep those positive things going.
But if it makes me therefore someone who focuses upon conditions wanted AND unwanted, then it bites me. Can’t be someone who’s focused upon these positive conditions, and therefore it is enhancing my point of attraction, and also someone who’s focusing upon these negative conditions. Have to be able to pick and choose. Have to be able to say, “I can’t go there about that.” DO NOT make those statements that don’t resonate with what’s in my Vortex. Stop telling those stories that don’t have anything to do with what’s going on.
There is a beautiful marriage in my Vortex. And hearing that, creates a condition, that I can focus upon, to feel better! ENJOY my BECOMING to meet it. Don’t feel the absence of it. Enjoy my becoming – to meet it.
❤ ❤ ❤