Gratitudes Apr 30 2019

  1. I am grateful for this Hicks youtube this morning. I think recognize from before. SO good for me.
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  3. my health
  4. that i can walk
  5. my rental car
  6. things are always working out for me
  7. chatting and crocheting at lunch yesterday
  8. retirement soon
  9. and other things then too!
  10. my house
  11. that it is in order
  12. my hair
  13. my hands
  14. shower and wash hair in minutes
  15. safety
  16. dishes
  17. breakfast
  18. the things in my Journal entry today!
  19. the “plays” we’re working on now
  20. flowers on y d,r, table. i like what i picked and what i’ve done with them
  21. thank you for this day ❤


Law of Attraction Apr 30 2019

How to put self first, Hicks

When think about reltnshp w p who mean most to you, tendency is to try to sync up with them. Big mistake. They’re sometimes not in the spot you wanna sync with. And your attention, takes you there too. Whatever you’re looking at, for more than 17 secs attention, you’re part of that! And you an no longer blame them because YOU’VE given your attention to that long enough that you have become like-minded with them.

I can feel that my thoughts are not like those of my Source. I can feel that these thoughts are not like those of my Source. They’re like the petty teenagers I grew up with. Or they’re like the fear-mongers on CNN. They are not like the Source within me and how do I know? Because they feel like this (ick). Instead of like this! (yay).

I’m reaching for like-mindedness. Apart from you. (Not to them). I love you so much but you are second on my list. Because my Inner Self is first. And I will not sacrifice that relationship for this one. I will no longer sacrifice my likemindedness with Source in order to validate you in a conversation.

[ Self – Esther and the next best-feeling thought. The day 3 hours on computer looking at something she found interesting on Pinterest ]

Negative emotion is because Inner Being won’t go there – negative place – with me.

Cannot soothe someone who in that moment is not soothable.

Alignment beforehand regarding sex. Then the intimacy feels wonderful. Not the reverse.

Could be in bad mood, start walking and breathing outside and taking mind off it and feel better because distracted from attention to subj that had vibratn full of resistance
But NOT teaching action to change vibrat. Teaching deliberate attention about the way  you feel, which then inspires the action.
The action reinforces. The alignment was already present.

Ex is when: As manifestation is unfolding, you recognize the work you’d done in advance – that’s what pre-paving is – that sets you up for this now manifestation.
And so
If you understand vibr, and if you understand emotion, and you do something about contouring your thoughts for the purpose of the good-feeling emotion, and then the action and other ideas are inspired from that basic place of alignment, everything will go better for you and in the long-run, you’ll have much more consistent alignment with who you really are.

Ex sex when in bad mood but partner good and talks into = distraction from out of vortex things plus good memories
so feel betrer
If you’ve been tending to your alignment and partner has, then the inspiration for the dilic intimiacies, conversations, walks in park, everything sweeter and better when in alignment.

YOU get in sync with who you are
and the likelihood of helping someone else do so is really really really high
Your attention upon anyone – even if not there with you is powerful powerful attentiong.
    SELF – FIRST must be in alignment with SELF and INNER BEING. Don’t even think    about other(s) til!xo
    ALSO SELF- I really BELIEVE now I WILL get there
when in vibration with who really are
And they will feel the love that you are projecting if they are anywhere in the vicinity of it. So you have the benefit of having two people who understand that who are simultaneously caring about how they feel and are working to feel good more of the time, then there’ll be much more of that intimacy, intertwine alignment. Much more alignment on all subjects of your life experience.

Everyone was not in total alignment when met – yes had some similar wavelength but not aware – one becomes aware of this alignment imp – then sometimes other bounces out of exp sometimes comes along in stronger way. But can’t take resp. for what anybody else is feeling.

“I’m often in much more alignment than partner I do the work” and yet – *in this moment with these words you are not! *
NOT feel this way because of what partner is doing. Alignment is alignment and mis-alignment is mis-alignment that’s why it becomes really a wonderful thing when take everybody else out of the equation and just form a partnership with your Inner Being. The likemindedness is what you’re reaching for. And what anybody else is doing is irrelevant to your equation. Really. Irrelevant to your equation.
Because when you’re in sync with your Inner Being, you love them all anyway. You don’t need them to do this or this or this to please you. You are already pleased. You are pleased by the resources of the Universe, you see.


For When Retire – Apr 30 2019

Seems VERY appealing to:

Get up between 4:30 and 6:30
Happily spend the time on the Hicks listening, and these morning things
So like,
listening, affirmations, exercise, shower, coffee of course, bird, plants if that day of week or laundry whatever but ALWAYS
listening, affirmations, gratitudes, exercise, reading some
out – something know going to – part-time work afternoon, meetings, volunteer, shopping and errand things, different days. Good for me!

May 1
Write – the n-f, a fiction (and can base on the n-f), cookbook. You can do WHATEVER you want!

May 3
The book! Make it a fiction but ABOUT my real experiences?
I LOVE typing and could do every morning for 2 hours while birds singing outside/ birds flying around my head inside…
PLAN something each day for 3 or after (even evening). Do my morning spiritual things and writing and piano and exercise and shower and go OUT and do later ( can reorganize in dark cold months but at least through November or so)
Those things can be (different days):
tea with Steph
walk with friend
the gym
visit with Tr
visit with MT
volunteer or part-time job somewhere – my mind KEEPS going to hospitals but to put in my head maybe not about sickness…
something with A and the the girls
even sister
go to library and write
book group
crochet group or embroidery group?
D and her fam dinner
French lesson
piano lesson
dance lesson
+travel to national parks (J)
walks in park with someone(s)
bookstore for browsing and reading mags (can even have cup of tea)

+ late afternoon and evenings in the dark cold:
have people over HERE – even for dinner:
hobbies like embroidery, diamond art, painting
that meditation group in hartsdale (every other week?)
grocery shop
laundry / cooking
jigsaw puzzles
friend come over to watch movie

CAN sub or tutor

Friends to do things with:
D, St, Tr, O, cousin P, cousins L & L, sister, niece, nurse A-M O’H, libr. C.S., Kr B out out or even lunches, M, MT, J, BV, MI, L, N, K.D., cousins J & K, Jo
princ. out for lunch, CG up the street
and will meet more


May 5
**Can look at it monthly – here’s an idea plan!:

* The gym 2-3x a week
* See St 2x a month
* See Da. 2x a month
* See fam 1x a month
* See M 1x a month
*See Tr (could be with MT sometimes) once every month, even for tea
*O every other month?
*K every other month?
Plus of course food shopping and
can do things at Starbucks type place or bookstore or library – like writing – or duolingo with earbuds – or read

(Dance lessons maybe (have extra hundred a month).
French lessons maybe (can also find it – like undo the pers. coach ww and stop
the Julie box subscription and give up the rags would = done). And that would
mean time to  do)

* Piano! Practice practice practice – maybe even 3, 4 hours a day!

Affirmations Apr 30 2019

I am worth loving. There is love all around me.

I look within to find my treasures.

I am an open channel for creative ideas.

You are a unique beautiful soul.

Wellness is the natural state of my body.

Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.


Journal Apr 30 2019

So today:
Give to the children and HAVE FUN.
Be good with aide and people at lunch.
Crochet a bit for SELF.
Come home and *sit in l.r. and read. – Stop at book store first for that book if want.* Otherwise, read the fiction – or Hicks!
Stay in good-feeling place.

The MOST important thing, is to stay in good-feeling place.

Eat veggies and proteins 3 meals nothing in between. ONE DAY.

I love you.

Remember – connection with self and Source is #1.

Yesterday, was in very good-feeling place and WANTED to read in l.r. but lay in den with tv, silly choice. And ate too much, and sugar. it’s ok, Honey (self), today is today. now is now.

~Am even putting self first by continuing the Hicks youtube rather than jumping to the fb stuff helping in groups…


Put out cup for tea and book for when get home xo

And this one day – I’m going to eat in a way to really lose weight. A one-day lose-a-pound kind of thing. Sort of like they eat on the show My 600-lb Life (but no meat lol)


Affirmations Apr 29, 2019

I feel glorious, dynamic energy. I am active and alive.

I am worth loving. There is love all around me.

Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.


Gratitudes Apr 28 2019

  1. I don’t have the most common sense in the world. But I surely do where children are concerned. If I hadn’t had the “miseries” I had in childhood, I might not. So I’m grateful for it all.
  2. My father’s limp. He was the greatest man and so when I limp now, I don’t feel so bad about it.
  3. some disposable income. like, i just went and “stocked up” on some things – foods – so I have a great chance of losing weight this week!
  4. that I’ve worked all these years, to afford this kind of thing! luxury
  5. ww today:)
  6. dinners i have right now are chili i already made, whole grain pasta with broccoli and garlic and oil, lentil soup and pasta bake possibly, canned soups, Smart Dogs, frozen proteins gardein with fries. And fruit
  7. lunches i have right now are: salads, canned soup, sandwiches  of tofu salad, vegan balogna, pb and “j,”  jackfruit. And fruit.
  8. breakfasts i have right now are: oatmeal, cream of wheat, toast and tea ,free pasture raised eggs, bagel and vegan cream cheese. And fruit.
  9. snacks i have right now are: carrots, celery, cuke, veggie pretzels, ww hummus chips, ww barbq chips, with hummus, salsa, guac/ halo top dairy free/ Italian ices/ banana with pb or powdered pb/ nuts, ww popcorn, popcorn to make
  10. breads i have now: bread alone, thin wh wh (couple slices), low glycemic, Eng, hamb buns?, another in freezer
  11. leader today spoke of just wanting to lose weight even 1% more than you want the.. whatever it is. okay. i can do that
  12. 2 loads laundry done today
  13. chili is made
  14. plants are all watered and doing great
  15. i wil straighten all now and come back

Affirmations Apr 28 2019

I feel glorious, dynamic energy. I am active and alive.

I love every cell of my body.

Today I create a wonderful new day and a wonderful new future.

Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.
Life is eternal and filled with joy. I look forward to every moment.

Everything is always working out for me.


Some of My Blessings. Even if I Do This All Day Apr 27 2019

  1. freedom
  2. America
  3. eyesight
  4. brain
  5. can read
  6. can play piano
  7. my hands
  8. my feet
  9. i can walk
  10. got rental car
  11.  it is good car
  12. better than mine lol
  13. but – i like mine better xo
  14. i can speak
  15. and breathe
  16.  and swallow
  17. and digest
  18. and absorb
  19. and eliminate
  20. i can hear
  21. and type
  22. and drive
  23. have done good work most of my life
  24. now will have free time
  25. my clear nose – ever since that surgery
  26. my teeth
  27. that tooth implant
  28. my tongue
  29. my esophagus
  30. y throat
  31. my stomach
  32. my liver
  33. my pancreas
  34. my lungs
  35. my heart
  36. my veins
  37. my skin
  38. my bones
  39. my breasts
  40. my waist
  41. losing weight
  42. ww
  43. my hips
  44. my fingernails
  45. my toenails
  46. my painlessness i every way i have it
  47. my toes
  48. my fingers
  49. my elbows
  50. my knees
  51. my ankles
  52. my wrists
  53. my capillaries
  54. my ventricles and aorta
  55. my kidneys
  56. my spleen
  57. my appendix
  58. my neck
  59. my shoulders
  60. my butt
  61. my vagina
  62. my clitoris
  63. my vulva
  64. my pubic hair
  65. my hair
  66. my legs
  67. my arms
  68. my muscles
  69. my tendons
  70. my earlobes
  71. my eyelashes
  72. that i sleep so well
  73. and dream
  74. and wake up
  75. i can go to beaches
  76. parks
  77. work
  78. part-time work
  79. volunteer
  80. sit outside and chill
  81. sit outside and read
  82. go for a drive
  83. go to woods
  84. paths. trails
  85. join walking groups
  86. photog groups
  87. writing groups
  88. reading groups
  89. senior centers (i’m young AND young at heart but could if wanted)
  90. visit cousins
  91. visit with friends
  92. sub
  93. move away
  94. take piano lessons
  95. take French lessons
  96. take dance lessons
  97. meditation groups – join or start
  98. ww
  99. oa
  100. i felt better after fewer than half

more later or tomorrow