When consider might be doing some self-sabotaging:
how to bridge your vibration into closer resonance with your IB about this subj. Bec what your IB knows will work for you.
Just think about the “damn I’m doing it again I’m sabotaging myself again” thing(s) –
And pick one
and here’s how to speak differently about it and change the way it feels (even something been thinking whole life)
ex me – not wanting to do the paperwork and phone calls –
guy there – resistance to making the phone calls to close the bus
I’ve got scattered vibration agout this that has me paralyzed
why do i feel paralyzed
bec sometimes think about what do want but mostly think about what don’t want
and what remembering about that is dominant in your vibration -but what you want is also active within your IB and so state what don’t and then what do
don’t: to do it. some of it makes me nervous
what do want: it to be done
It’s all right to reel that way. And when things not going way want them to, it’s easy to feel them.It’s natural. But you have more power that you could exercise if you want to.
I could do something about this. But I sort of need to prime the pump a little bit. I’ve got an attitude about it that’s kind of holding me back. And I don’t now why. I wish I could figure it out. I don’t know why. But I think I am gonna get a little movement on this. I’m gonna stop beating myself up about it. It will feel good when I feel inspired to do something. (maybe cause don’t know what to do – self at least some – or just not want to do what know need to do)
I don’t wanna do what I need to do. I wanna do it but I don’t wanna do it. (He doesn’t know)
Why don’t you want to do it
I just feel sort of stuck in it. It just doesn’t have any momentum going and I can’t get any energy going around it. But I believe if I did it I would feel relief.
I know if I do it I will feel relief. And I do want to feel relief. And I like the idea of feeling relief. And maybe I’m willing to do some of it just to reel relief. And I don’t have to do it all at once. I can do it a little bit at a time. And I could start just byd identifying some thoughts about it. I don’t have to jump into action about it. I could get some momentum going about it. Source Energy knows the path of least resistance.
Oooh. I think I know what I’m doing. I haven’t quite hooked in to the easy path that Source will give me, and I don’t wanna do it the hard way. I’m working against myself cause I don’t wanna do it the way I used to do everything.
A says don’t take action but I haven’t hoooked up with Source En and not getting inspiration and don’t know what to do so am just sort of stuck here
Why would it feel better for it to be done:
I like to keep up with things.
I’m really good at.
and I can do what I have to do without stepping on the toes of my new vibration. In fact even now, this self-talk that I’m having with myself is to talk myself into a vibration where I’m feeling more resonance with Inner Being, where I’ll be more likely to get some inspiration about what to do.
Maybe when I wake up tom i’ll feel more like doing something (self today) maybe not but maybe just a little bit of it
Esther process: load dishwasher or org closet or work on the twice monthlies for the subscription progrs that go out (editing _ sometimes just thinks about and feels want to do but other things like prepping for cpa longer and E discovered not have big blocks of time – so keeps putting off but then gets in uncomf place bec not keeping promise to self and maybe even holding someone else up
Takes paper puts circles. In each, puts one small part of task. Find cash receipts, spread Jan, spread Feb,/.. breaking into something can do in 30 minutes or less. Now game on. Now not overwhelming. I’ve got 30 minutes. IN fact, have again. Hey, this day is full of 30 minutes
Takes big old pink magic marker and when finishes something, fills whole cirecle in very carefully ooh
That primes the pump. Because believes she can accomplish that. And when desire something don’t believe get all out of whack. As find way can believe, come back into alignment. And what happens every time: she starts out like that, priming the pump, and before she knows, she’s rolling rolling rolling rolling and before she knows it she’ll look at the clock and it’s been many many many joyful hours that she’s been accomplishing something that could take a month could take a week could take a day. But if she doesn’t do anything, it takes forever. And then she’s carried it with her her whole life – burden.