I used to want time –
to bake bread
to keep up with home but not live around it
to practice piano
to exercise
to read
I used to want energy
Retirement gives me both!
I WANT to cook
I used to want time –
to bake bread
to keep up with home but not live around it
to practice piano
to exercise
to read
I used to want energy
Retirement gives me both!
I WANT to cook
I always wanted to not work.
Yes, I’m very glad I got to help children! But I was always more comfortable free. Well almost always. Because besides helping children, there were those times that my work saved me ❤
But now –
Now –
I get to put time into mySELF. My foods, walking, spirituality, fun.
I can take courses, learn French, photography, painting.
I am FREE!
I’m not on the treadmill running rushing frantic…
I’m not worried about the changes I don’t like – all the data – all the computer stuf – the parents, the type of kids I was getting, so much so much. 🙂
And
PIANO! Piano piano piano
The arts omg finally enough time!
Piano – embroidery – painting (badly) – French
Want to spend more time now with:
embroidery
book writing
birds taming
piano
French
walking
dancing
meditation
Reiki
stretches
time with nature!
walks
dance
travel
paint
friends (and fam)
Already enjoying:
reading
whimsy jigsaw puzzles
tarot
Things I’m interested in. Now.
Hicks
Tarot
OA new sponsor
Dance
Walks with nature
Taming my birdie boys
Fun things – like – dance, bookstore, travel, people out laughing fun
Nieces, St, D, Tr, MT
Exercise
Reading
J
Reiki, meditation, Ornish.
Piano. And give a recital?
I can do anything I want
I can dress like a hippie
or boho chic
or fancy every day
or nothing but jeans
I can dye my hair any color I want
I can do belly dancing
or any kind of acrobatics
I can take swimming lessons
French
Spanish
Italian
I can travel
I can give a piano concert
I can have a long-term love life primary relationship
I can become an actress
I can take dancing lessons
I can’t believe this! it’s huge!
Travel
is starting to appeal to me more than the primary relationship!
Travel!
would have never expected it.
This heart issue is teaching meto be ME and full and open and to LIVE
And
Hicks
Finding my OWN personal alignment
Finally
And living as
and with
and for
me.
End July beg Aug finally feeling the freedom. The life
Got notice yesterday what I’ll be getting as pension
Is less than I’d been told
but
is okay
I can do this!
Omg thank you that I have awakened again – 2nd day in a row – with good feeling.
Thank you that I have awakened!
List of things that just feel good to me.
(Whether I think can do/have them or not).
feet in stream
piano
my birds singing
flying
my birds on my hands
my plants
my yard
opsitives. listening to hicks
having fun times like with St th eother day
time with J
cooking something delicious and good for me in every way
losing weight
being out with people
hugs
feeling pretty in a dress
being in the water (“swimming’)
walking in nature with J
and with a dog off-leash!
accomplishments. getting things done.
my home in order
having enough money
when I was in England
laughter
light easy ping-pong
paddle boating
walking in nature
country
D. says in the beginning of her spiritual journey, she had eye floaters.
And tinnitus.
!
And that she saw them as angels talking to her. “We’re here. We hear you. Can you hear us!”
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My only job is to feel good. I can – well – not “work” on self, but enjoy. Like when Hicks said to that person who expressed what she “should” be doing, which missed the point Hicks had just made using ducks as a reference, “No! Just look at ducks!” I can “just look at ducks!”
I can:
meditate every single day
enjoy my birdies
do my affirmations and gratis
maybe some OA stuff
meetings
plus courses soon
plus see St, D, M, O, Tr, MT, N, BV, KB
Don’t skip greens. What a great difference today wow!
When I don’t look ahead in a state of worry – what IF… oh NO I don’t want to be ALONE FOREVER…. when I don’t do that, I quite enjoy the DAY!
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courses!
Start each day that possibly can (weatherwise) outside~ Table back with coffee and laptop
Or front bench when cols, for one of the coffees
Sit outside – even front grass – and read Abraham A New Beginning Vortex or Ask and It Is Given or more ❤