how HE feels about me were not an issues at ALL
and whether ANYONE wants me were not
what would i be doing
i now know I don’t like how I FEEL after eating like crap
so i want to not do that anymore
def stay vegan
more whole real foods
no junk even ww or other like that. should not need snacks.
it. has. never. helped.
and. it. has. hurt.
so i would be eating well
cleaning and doing laundry and cooking and sending for groceries
a little French and piano and jigsaw puzzles and exercise
OUTSIDE TIME! ALL I CAN GET! – as long as feels good – which it always has! every time!
if things are still this way in the fall and even winter, then LOTS piano and French and jigsaw and exercise
and physically distant visits
write the book
paint by number
finish the scarf
and the blanket
try some vegan recipes from the cookbooks
A lot of thought and a talk with A and some researach and line -and a breakthrough. Here it is:
i think i have to
find more of a LIFE
i have started
need some but few meetings (oa)
and make sure make OWN decisions who/how to be
and live more. NOW.
not associate self or others with addiciton addiction addiction
yes with trying to live reat life
not speak of character defects. i don’t like the language. but of unskillfulness (like THN). and most of all Hicks and the positives