List of positive aspects while feeling good enough… 🙂
- my eyesight!
- my potential!
- piano in my life here and now!
- French in my life here and now!
- retirement and all that it opens up
- I went down and cleaned off car
- will cover somehow
- yummy on a budget site
- I’m a free person who’s never been in a cult. (jim jones show on today)
- i can do the kind of cooking now, that i’ve always wanted to do
- between little (quick) but very healthy cooking every day, french, piano, and the gym (gym 3 x a week), that’s a lot of great stuff! add seeing friends, and oa meetings… wow
- i am a positive person a hopeful person. i am so grateful that i am! i wasn’t always maybe?
- i have my own little home. i am very fortunate in this way
- days to relax when sick
- planning to not get sick anymore
The French Language
What do I like about you?
You are the most beautiful language to me! I have always loved the sound! In high school, when we were selected unfairly for one language or the other (French or Spanish, based on a nonsense-language test and how we did!), I SO dearly desired – desperately wanted – French! And got it yay.
I found it difficult, granted I don’t think I had a good teacher… Then years later – decades later – I took classes through job and they were ok but I didn’t learn much – beginning stuff and culture… restaurant…
Then I got a private teacher, and later another. Learned some.
But now – NOW – I started yesterday with a new one and she’s GREAT! I learned so much during the 90 minutes! And already started by great homework! Yay!
Why do I love you so much?
I love the sound of you.
I have a good accent.
I love the way you are built.
I love the look of you.
What are your positive aspects?
You are available to me!
I have TIME to do!
I was happy for hours after lesson yesterday!
And am looking forward to today’s homework!
I WILL speak and ead and write French!
Positive Aspects of My Life Right Now Today and Tomorrow
What do I like about you
That you are here. I AM alive.
And breathing with eyesight and freedom and prob many more years
That D called me and we had that great talk right at the end of her life-changing weekend
That I redid the whole puzzle after it fell on the chair and floor lol
That I opened my new dishes and put away
And made the phone call about the one that came broken. They should replace it. Good.
I have 3 people doing for me tomorrow!
I will probably sleep tonight. At least some. Maybe enough
I have a great surgeon
Why do I love you so much
Because I HAVE you and I AM here.
The CHANGES! Omg! How much of the time I feel fine and even happy. How MUCH of the time I even have bliss. And at the least, feel okay.
That I am helping my health.
That I do positive things. Like yesterday’s lectures, and working Step 9, probably beginning next Fri after talk with sponsor Thur (oa)
I have become an even better person and am so grateful for that
I am retired and there are endless possibilities for my love to spread
I have people who care about me, and I about them.
I have Source.
Just yesterday I literally thought this: Everything really IS always working out for me!
What are your positive aspects
I enjoy reading
I enjoy piano
I enjoy and care for my birdies
I have plenty
I am retired
I am going more for fun and adventure than just safe and quiet.
I have a future
I have happiness
I have luck
I have fun
I have endless possibilities.
Who wouldn’t love me?
Positive Aspects of this day
I do not go to work
And I get paid
More than I NEED
I was up early
Birds are up
I am breathing good sigh breaths of like – relief
I loved my Hicks while falling asleep
Was awakened by E’s text beep:)
Good Hicks this am
I can do WHATEVER I WANT
I will exercise and do a load of laundry. MAYBE check pink book
And maybe color. read. walk outside. go to bookstore. whatEVER!
i am free
I can see
I can walk
Really, I do have my health
my heart my lungs my skin etc
My cholesterol and triglycerides must be responding to the meds and the eating changes
I can breathe and speak and drive
I can feel good about helping Jo yesterday, as he will help me on the 16th.
I made fresh coffee
My birds are healthy
I feel peace
Yesterday – omg – and waking up knowing – omg the peace and joy and happiness and freedom these practices are bringing me to feel!
Thank you, God.
What is good bout J having to switch dinner out together fom tonight to next week:
- It was about work, which is fine but not only fine but also good (that he’s working – good for me and good for him)
- It givews me a week to look forward to it.
- It gives me a week to feel better about myself!!!!!
- *It changes nothing. The weekend thing changes nothing.
- That he still wants – and has – me in his life.
- and i am fine. as i am.
No M. Looking at only the positive aspects:
No constant – OFTEN more than DAILY phone calls
No frenetic frantic negative negative drama drama
No phoniness of so sweet under which is cold and eeven cruel selfishness
***Her IB loves her and mine doesn’t feel the way I do either but I am doing what is GOOD about – SO good about – not having her in my life anymore, to feel better.
No icky time at her house
No craziness – like the time with cell phone in one hand and house in other, with guys, even inviting one over, when I was supposed to stay!
Nobody with whom I can never get a word in – even talking when I’m across the street and she’s in car on other side in passenger seat and I haven’t gotten yet to address the last things she monologued!
No need for constant concentration on someone else’s – crazy and out-of-control and always problem-filled feelings
Even to teh point of, “Even though everything is wrong in my lfie, I wanted to call to congratulate you today.” Omg wow.
Wishing her the best. MIght even say the resentment prayer… But SO glad not to have her around. Ahhh.
No more rich person’s money -worries and obsesions
and constant justifications about it
and phonying up to people people-peasing
no more trusting someone who would and did drop me like a hot potato when SHE felt needy.
No more complaints about absolute bullshit “I have a child going into high school which is a LOT.” And my favorite, “I am a single mother.” Uh. No, she’s not.
I am FREE!
So in the big picture, thank you.