1. I’m so grateful that we’d gotten this house in order or I’d be having  million times harder time during this pandemic omg!
  2. I’m so grateful for the delivery today! I have oranges and lemons and bananas and onions and pickles and pasta and soups and chickpeas and more leftover! Plus new
  3. bananas
  4. and an apple
  5. and lots of fresh leafy greens
  6. a sweet potato
  7. whole grain breads
  8. hummus
  9. celery
  10. carrots
  11. porteins
  12. ketchup
  13. sauce
  14. pintobeans
  15. lentils
  16. I have toilet paper
  17. and paper towels
  18. and napkins
  19. and flushable wipes
  20. and even Lysol wipes
  21. and masks
  22. and soap
  23. and sanitizer. Wow. I am so grateful
  24. that I HAVE food
  25. and a place to live
  26. and good books
  27. J in my life
  28. Jo who does so much
  29. my close friendship with ATr
  30. MT
  31. St
  32. CS
  33. KC
  34. L
  35. my darling fam
  36. I am breathing well
  37. And not coughing
  38. I even have zinc
  39. and vit C
  40. and vit D
  41. and menthol lozenges
  42. water
  43. diet ginger ale
  44. and a lemon something drink
  45. teas
  46. cofees
  47. wow
  48. I’m so grateful that I took my walk yesterday
  49. and today
  50. Thank you, God, for everything!
  51. My cell phone
  52. On which I hear Hicks while walking
  53. with the ear things I bought cause they fit better than the ones that I got with the phone
  54. good safe neighborhood to walk in, thank you, God
  55. awareness of the Law of Attraction
  56. Tomorrow I will do those things I have to do, and I will feel GREAT afterward (if not before!)
  57. then drugstore will deliver the things I need. Oh, thank You.

Grat 5/13

I had such a nice time this morning.
Sat outside doing Fr stuff. And the 3 came and planted the new things. And it is beautiful out. And it felt so good. Even before they came. And I loved seeing her – I haven’t seen her in so long.
Then I came in (hours had passed and it was also getting cold) and roasted some vegetables.
But then i started to – sort of sink a little – listening to briefing on youtube and wondering about my money… led to thinking about J 😦
Had lunch
Watching 600 lb lilfe
NOW thinking – MUST keep enjoying/ and develop self/ and STAY POSITIVE (Hicks)

Am grateful for all the nice already today – including loving my plantings – and expecting more to come including a walk, sitting out front and reading, and listening to Hicks.

Am also VERY glad remembered M’s b’day.

apr 27 2020



  1. I don’t have to prepare food for anyone else. That would make it harder in terms of my own eating.
  2. I am free. Little House The Wisdom of Solomon reran today and is SO sad – not free, that poor little boy and so many like him. I am a free person.
  3. The weather is changing
  4. My sunroom is so neat
    and pretty (“wasted space” and I LOVE that lol)
  5. All the plants in there
  6. And I reorganized the cabinet
  7. My breathing is so much better, oh thank You, God!
  8. And my friend for praying so purely for it
  9. PM game playing with cousin  – and with friend
  10. That I can read
  11. That I can see!
  12. I have private bathroom. Like I thought about how much harder if have foster child, when gets sick etc.
  13. and kitchen
  14. My bed is comfy
  15. My masks came
  16. I took a nice ride today (which also warmed up the car)
  17. and was/am safe
  18. that I either haven’t had covid, or have had it and it didn’t “get” me
  19. MA all those years
  20. M.A. (my friend now on fb since only met once irl)

A lot of people love me.
Irl and on fb.
And you know what?
I’ve been freed to be fully 100% mySELF.
I don’t NEED anyone to like or love me, who doesn’t want to!

And I can be as
as I want!