Category: 2022

Note to Self PLEASE Learn This Lesson!

Omg, I did it again.
Last night I binged.
You know, “Just this one last time.”
I had bad funky dreams all night, and woke up face swollen, fingers sausages, and “down.”
Am still feeling like crap.
But all I want to do is eat.
It is really a disease.
But the 12 step program doesn’t do it for me because I ALREADY live that way (yes, have been through the steps with sponsor). I still overeat.

Please – if for no other reason than to not have another bad night and wake up the same way tomorrow (let alone to stay alive): may I have help to not do it. Just this night.

***Anyone who has a comment, I will come back and check! xo

Gratitudes Jan 3 2022

  1. I paid credit card last night at midnight
  2. I am on good budget
  3. I had escarole salad! Yay.
  4. Jigsaw puzzles
  5. and whoever “invented” them
  6. My eysight
  7. My life
  8. My breath
  9. My voice
  10. J in my life
  11. Jo made it there and back safely
  12. My nieces xo
  13. and nephew-in-law xo
  14. My W course
  15. My S course
  16. My birds. Little sweethearts
  17. My plants.
  18. Trees.
  19. The Moon
  20. The Stars
  21. The Sun
  22. Water.
  23. Water to drink
  24. Water to bathe in
  25. Water in pools
  26. Water in the ocean, rivers, lakes, and streams
  27. The park near my house
  28. my house
  29. heat
  30. my fingers
  31. typing
  32. my laptop
  33. my phones
  34. Piano! And by that I mean playing
  35. And – the instrument – the one J picked with me and supported me in buying
  36. Music. And by that I mean sheet music
  37. All the composers
  38. and my great piano teachers
  39. my hair
  40. blow dryer
  41. Serious Skin Care
  42. pedicures
  43. massages
  44. soaks
  45. my face
  46. my smile
  47. my teeth
  48. my ability to swallow
  49. my precious lungs
  50. my beautiful heart
  51. my safety
  52. my yards
  53. my trees
  54. honest people
  55. kind people
  56. people who don’t eat or use animals (and products)
  57. my mother and her great cooking example
  58. my mother and her great compassion example
  59. my mother and her great non-gossipy example
  60. my mother and her great conversational example
  61. my mother and her strength
  62. my mother and her acceptance
  63. God
  64. Comfort Like – I’m sitting here in comfy clothes, in a blanket, with laptop on my lap, watching a movie on tv, with water to drink, at my side. xo
  65. Retirement!
  66. my right hand skin in healing
  67. all those piano lessons. Thank you, Parents
  68. Hope for fture
  69. Living in moment
  70. Remembering, in this moment, that was all I had then. I did what I could. And – I have more now.
  71. my travels.
  72. including London (and beyond)
  73. Bermuda
  74. Barbados
  75. ❤ California ❤
  76. Montreal
  77. DC
  78. Catskills
  79. Poconos
  80. swimming at the beach
  81. My. Veins.
  82. my lood
  83. my doctors
  84. and dentists
  85. this neighborhood
  86. Everyone who has ever tried to help me
  87. That I am not in deep depression
  88. Electric lights
  89. my stove
  90. my new dishwasher
  91. The four elements: Earth
  92. Fire
  93. Air
  94. Water
  95. The four directions: North
  96. South
  97. East
  98. West